Just Breathe...

guess it's about time

2008-02-18T17:12:00.000+08:00

You asked me why I wanted to know how you are doin after all that has happened. I pondered on that ques, annoyed by it too, frustrated over these things, ppl say its not worth thinking….and all I can answer is because I care.I know you miss your family, miss home, miss your close frens back home. You had the choice to go back, but you chose not to and stayed on for studies. You said sad life, but here I am telling you is you had the choice and a reason to make that decision of yours. I hope your reason is strong enough for you to go thru this one recess week and dun let it go to waste.I still remember the last recess, we went back together. I went back to wind up, thinking of quitting NUS cos my sis wedding clashing with my attachment. You said that its gonna be a real loss if I do quit. You even said that I am ur closest fren in sg who have helped you in many ways, always there for you and kept you away from feeling lonely.I guess all that you say, and all the times we have spent are left memories. You wont be lonely this recess week, I know, cos you still have others here. And I pray that you will cherish them for they are by your side and that all will go well in everything you do, be it studies, family, love or career.I am still hurt….a lot of dissatisfaction, explains why I never came back online. And that I may have treated you badly, ironically with wat I call you as my fren. I am sorry if I have been pushing you in one way or another with all my harsh, sad, emo words.I guess all that happened because i am wondering what have I done to deserve this. Maybe I helped you too much that you stop helping me. Maybe I cared for you too much that you wanna stop caring bout me. Maybe I spent so much time with you that stop yourself from having any time with me.The last time we went out, buying your shoes, on the way back, if you remember…I wasn’t moody…..i just wanna let you know i was just quiet. I was quiet because i know that that is gonna be the last time we are gonna shop together, spend our time together. I was quiet because I wanted to cherish that last good old day. I just wished that I could have spent cny eve, friendship day and chap goh mei with my closest buddy and not alone.I realize Im holding on to this friendship so much, so strongly because of me n not for you. I guess I wanted to protect myself, not wanting to lose a close fren, although I already have.And I know that if I really care for you, my fren, I should and would let go. And let you carry on with your studies and your social life, while I move on with my life, caring for others who are concerned bout me more.All I can say is I am still trying…..trying to find my way, find my place, find myself and waitin…waiting for time, waiting for a change of things.STUDY HARD my fren. I know you can stay focus with lil effort of help from others.

is it done?

2008-01-25T12:43:00.001+08:00

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

I took another chance, took a fall
Took a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new - yeah
I loved you with the a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like an angel
Heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

That it's too late to apologize
It's too late
I said it's too late to apologize
It's too late

-timbaland, apologize-



No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
The truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind

I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you (I'll always have you)

Sick of playing all of these games
It’s not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror didn’t deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I’ve gotta be strong and leave you behind

If I live every moment
Won’t change any moment
There's still a part of me in you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do, oh

- jordin sparks, tatoo-


I never knew perfection til
I heard you speak, and now it kills me
Just to hear you say the simple things
Now waking up is hard to do
And sleeping is impossible too
Everything is reminding me of you
What can I do?

It’s not right, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break…

A fool to let you slip away
I chase you just to hear you say
You’re scared and that you think that I’m insane

The city look so nice from here
Pity I can’t see it clearly
While you’re standing there, it disappears
It disappears

So you sitting all alone
You’re fragile and you’re cold, but that’s all right
Life these days is getting rough
They’ve knocked you down and beat you up
But it’s just a rollercoaster anyway, yeah

I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break, baby

- maroon 5, better that we break-


am gonna predict, my old frens out there would probably think of sth...
here's my answer to you, its not wat you think it is.
it concerns of sth that i cherish most, no matter where i am, when it is....
i am sure you know wats the most important for me....

happy & satisfied VS worried

2007-11-17T16:38:00.000+08:00

before i start, THANKS to those who have spoken to me these past few days....you know who you are.....nostalgic memories...*sorry* i only have these few pix in my lap top*

ok.....i dunno what to feel....

i am suppose to study, which i did BUT at the same time, am watching series!

yes, and for those of you who knows my history of being glued to the tv during the kiddy days and also secondary school days, am not sure if i am back to my old self. i lost that identity last year when i was in college kl, cos there was no tv to watch and not much source of series.

NOW....hum hum hum, maybe having a constant internet line is not so good after all, as i can watch series after series non stop....of course, i am studying when i do that.

i dunno whether i should feel happy and satisfied or worried. my old self is back,doing homework during commercial breaks and studying in front of the tv, eliminating the stressful feeling, and also helping me to feel guilty if i watch too much and so making me feel focus.

or should i be worried cos i haven stopped doing this for the past year and i wonder how much i studied actually gets into my head.

watever it is, i know in future when i am bored, or at least feeling disconnected and not belonged, i have a home to turn to - my room = my bed, my skype, my series.....

end? beginning?

2007-11-16T09:50:00.000+08:00

last day was my last day of uni for sem 1 year 1. and i need not mention how time flies soooo fast again. it just seems like i just blogged about my arrival in singapore and my nursing ori camp, trying to get used to this new home.

despite the ups and downs, emotional rages that i had, theres nothing i can dwell bout it but really just live thru each day to the fullest. am sure most of you all would agree me in this, life has just got to go on, no matter how crappy your life is.

andso for the next week, its reading week. my first paper starts on fri with smelly engligh, and sat anatomy. monday ethics and law, wed contem nursing, thurs physiology and fri last but not least professional issues and practices.

really hope i can focus on my studies now and not think think think, let others affect me and also series!!! hehe.

and after my exams, i seriously owe lots of ppl time, haven been spending time with my frens and most importantly our dear old school mate chris!! hang in there chris, before i pass you my greys. and also time with the rest of all of you, very very delayed emails and phone calls.

cant wait to go back kuching and meet up with everyone.

its not that i am homesick or wat, but i tot the 'home' that i have established here in singapore, nus, i am beginning to lose it.....explains my last post song on home from michael buble.

all i ask is very simple for home. a place where i truly feel belonged, connected and among understanding ppl. and most importantly, the sense of security. am sure you all would know my history of insecurit. i once tot i had alreday here in.....but am beginning to lose it and i really just wanna go home. thats why i really cant wait to go back kuching, home where my frens are all there.

sorry ppl for not being up to date. will catch up with you guys soon. and those of you who are going to drop by singapore for transit of hols.....let me know. am gonna be here till dec 27....spending lonely xmas here.

study hard for those who are sitting for exams and those over already, enjoy, relax and have fun!!

2007-11-11T11:25:00.001+08:00

another summer day
has come and gone away

maybe surrounded by
a million people i
still feel all alone
i just wanna go home

-------------------

solo en el corazon

para el amor, la esperanza, la compania y la felicidad; quien voy

wats with me?

2007-11-10T09:57:00.000+08:00

i finally did my laundry and iron ALL my clothes which has been sitting in my cupboard for days!!!

and i did try to cook!!

wat else, oh tony blair's lecture. it was an experience listening to a real politician talk....but i guess above all, the best part is after the lecture.....WINE AND FINGER FOOD.....from shangrilla.

now back to the real student world....START STUDYING!!!

good luck everyone in your tests/assignments/exams

i just cant seem to blog my feelings out now....weird......i tot i could do that since i cant talk now

happy deepavali!!

2007-11-08T10:24:00.000+08:00

ppiiixxxx - SEOUL GARDEN ORCHARD
(ME, CHANG MEI, CHRISTINE, CHI KUAN, SU EE)
(HSIEN LENG, BRANDON, MING HAN)

the last time i blogged was just after my recess week. and now, its a week before uni officially ends. oct, and now nov. again i need not mention, SOO FAST!!

just had a grueling week. and thie weekend, is gonna be a long break, pause for me to rest and catch up with things slowly. yep yep yep, i know finals is less than OMG, 2 weeks?? i never realised that. but i really need to slow down after my ethics and law essay, pip presentation and also anatomy ca, all happening in one shot. next week still got skills lab for transfering. yep, i definitely need to slow down this weekend. not to mention, recuperate to build a stronger inner self...since the past 2 weeks have been really emotionally and mentally drainin.

i am worried, because i am not worried bout my studies!! ARGHHHH...feels like my mind are more occupied with frens, ppl, my surroundings. and that kinda sucks cos i am suppose to be thinking bout studies. its weird, that i feel tired, drained out not because of studies but more to ppl. am sure you know how worried i can get but this time round, i felt that i am doing fine with my studies tho i am not the top of the top but i am not so concerned bout it which worries me now. and really, ppl is also not a good mind thinking factor. its really drains you out and i must say my feelings are controlling my life and thats a big NO NO to anyones life, just like wat my lecturer used to mentioN

oh well, now i just gotta learn to control. this week, definitely a slow down for me, nevertheless, activities, outings are still on and definitely STUDIES. no more time but taking it slowly.

late going bugis to celebrate for presentation with my grp after the hard work we put in. also a relaxationperiod for all us after the hectic schedule that we had.

tomorrow gonna be in tony blair's lecture...hopefully its not gonna be boring.

half sem gone

2007-09-30T14:57:00.000+08:00

time really flies....sooo freaking fast. half a sem is gone. i mean my half sem 1 is gone. had a recess week since last sat. went to kl visit my sis. and yesterday came back to sing. wat can i say. recess is not so much of a holiday. anyone would agree with me on that, recess is time to catch up with watever studies that you are left behind. study??? test coming up as uni reopens. study??? of course most of us failed to do it. planing to study, ends up with fun, pleasure, lazyness and just rest and relax. oh well

was not in a good emotional state before recess. which was why i really look forward to the recess week for me to just take a step back, think and sort things out. since todays the last day of recess, any progress??? well, not really...still feeling the same way. i just dunno why. but i have made up my mind, time just doesnt wait for us. so look not to the past but just be prepared for wats ahead of you. well, its really easy for me to say to my frens but i never want to listen to my own words. am sure you my frens agree on me on that

ah, having cas really soon. gootta start studying. bet my other coursemates have finished while me, just started. oh well, wat to do, just din had the mood.

meanwhile, trip back to kl was......REALLY A MIXED EMOTIONAL TRIP. explaination??? well, those of you who knows wats going on with my familys event of the year would know wat i am facing. plus my life in nus in terms of my course, and my future and my passion and dream. all adds up during the hols, definitely this trip was an emotional one. I MISS MY SISTERS!!! definitely...

nevertheless, i did had a great time with them!

and also with my frens. went down to klang, had bak kut teh, cendol and went jusco. crazy pix

of all the fun that i had, its now that matters

and now, its back to reality!!!

note: am not stress yet k. i am having lotsa fun. if one is stress, one wont be having fun. its just that why isnt there more time so we can have more fun and enjoy watever we do including studying??

pix from 'home'

2007-09-14T10:46:00.000+08:00

nite life at pgp, the foyer that never sleeps, trust me, two three am still got ppl

christine and i at cheese prata shop nearby

just love the skylight. anyway, on the rite is my cluster gate

entering my corridor, and the first room on the left , O is my room

and this is how my room looks like when i first came. i tell you, i was shocked, so disappointed.

plain looking compared to chang meis one.

but then after a few days, hm...i cant ask for more from my room. why?

waking up, and looking at the picturesque view outside my window room, its just so calm and peaceful

and after settling down, my room is feeling kinda 'homey'

my bed, my study table, own sink and cupboard

and i just look my view! left, is wat i see looking down from my window

rite, is the left view when coming out from the lift

the center and the rite. at really good place to stone at nite when the foyer is packed with ppl

Tissues + RAG DAY/SUNTEC 11 aug

2007-09-07T11:10:00.000+08:00

yup, am carrying tissues everywhere i go.....down with flu!!!...i guess its about time. tho with the healthy fruit and veg diet i have everyday and lots of water i drank now ....most of you would know i dun drink water... the lack of sleep and rest has finally caused me to have the usual cold symptoms. flu, sore throat and swollen lymph nodes. since tues actually, noticed my lymph nodes were swollen and i knew sth is not right, and also was feeling so tired, weak, and here comes the sore throat and now adding on, flu. but wat i cant stand is its like alang-alang flu, flu symptom, keep on sneezing, weak body but no runny nose, or blocked nose. ish....now i wish my flu would come and go fast!

why? well, i have tonnes of work to do...yes yes, those of you who started uni since beg of this year, i finally understand wat you mean...never ending work. and tom, sat, i have a bash for nursing, med, dentistry and pharmacy. and on sun, gonna watch rattatouile with my support group. so yea, i need to be well to go for both events. ok...and the otehr important reason is i need to study...test on tuesday and next week wil be the heavy week with mroe research to be done. this weekend is like a catch up weekend....have not be on par with the lectures. yes yes, sherly not being able to catch up...i cant believe it myself. with all the modules tat am taking, none of them NONE, i am up to date. so yea, i gotta ctach up asap before hols cos hols need to study for exam after hols is over.

alritos, i gotta get back to blood blood and more blood, physiology and then cadio which i ttally have no idea wat was being taught. meanwhile, here are pix during the rag day 11 aug!! and then after that, went to suntec, christine, both andrews and i.

more pix

2007-09-03T23:28:00.000+08:00

alumnis, sze yung, alex and jenny plus wei lit!!

Matrichie Resevoir Park & Steamboat National Day 9th August

2007-08-31T23:09:00.000+08:00

the alumnis brought us to matrichie reservoir park, a place in singapore where you can finaly see trees and no buildings. jungle trekking, basically trekking up the hill to the tree top! it was different. then after the 4 hour plus walking up and down the tree top, we had lunch, crispy prata was the main dish. and milo dinosaur too. went back to rest and shower. and at nite, the alumnis made a steamboat dinner for my support group in one of their house, thus, experiencing home cooked food in a homey environment while watching movie Just Follow Law besides celebrating Singapores National Day.

end of week 3

2007-08-30T14:30:00.000+08:00

this week is the third week of my uni. and it has come to an end, besides tomorrows english class. wat can i say??? there has been ups and downs thruout this 3 weeks.

my course is sure a hell lot of fun...i mean i like wat i am studying. physiology, anatomy, and also its practical where we get to see cadevers and actually examine wats actually in our body.

theres healthcare ethics and law with professional issues and practices, probably one of the wu liao subjects cos, you wont know wat you are actually studying. as the title says, it basically a very subjective modules and you will end up with more questions, unanswered after the class. but its interesting, cos it really makes us think outside the box, think differently on our perception of life.

and theres contemperary nursing, where this is by far the most important module of all cos this is the time where we learn out clinical skills, and also nursing theory skills and also problem solving. of course, clinical practicum, another module where its like an attachment at the end of each sem. in a dilemma with this now, cos the praticum clashes wth my sis wedding, praying realy hard that am off duty on her wedding day.

and those are my 6 modules that i was allocated this sem. and theres english where i think its just a waste of time, but oh well, taking it isnt a bad thing since it will be another module in your cert.

i enjoy all those modules....BUTTTTT the workload is crazy!!!. i mean rite now at this point of time, this weekend, i am just soo busy. basically i was busy all this while eversince uni starts, explains my lack of post except for the pix.

nursing is definitely hectic!!! i mean our schedule is crazy. 8-5 mon, 8-6 tues, 10-5 wed and 8-12 thurs. all one hour break only and fri i got 2 hour class. the workload is really really really crappy. for those who thinks that nursing students are slackers then you are wrong. and whoever thinks its pointless to have so much work for nursing, i dun have anything to say to you anymore, perhaps not even gonna talk to you. really, even medicine year 1 students are so free. so yea, week 1 and the lecturer starts pouring all their knowledge to us. and no time to relax.

been quite affected every week, facing challenges not on studies only, but also with the environment, with the ppl that you face that doesnt understand wat we nursing students are actually facing and worse of all, say things that just hurts your feelings. BUUTTT, i am soo gald to have a bunch of frens who truly understands too, and i guess thats where my strength lies now, those who supported me, and encouraging me.

alrite, i should start my work. i have my 30% final marks on my table now for pip. i have to research on cataract and euthanasia, also on thromboemboly for my physio presentation. these are the most important things i have to do. and dun think when i am finish i am done, can play and relax...no no, i have tonnes and tonnes of reading to do for the 2 wu liao subjects....case studies. and also practise clinical skills. wat worse, tom nite, i have a club meeting, sat afternoon a talk, sun morn, act and nite pot luck. so no time for this weekend. gotta start now..

oh ya, joined the astronomical soc, so can gaze at stars and just stoned looking at the sky. reminds me of damai this year where chris and i and the rest just stoned at the skies. and also biological science. wanna join rovers, voluntary action and dance blast....but looking at my schedule, i will be dead rite??? so saving it for next time.

till then,i apologize for not keeping in touch with anyone within these few weeks....

when we were still free not long ago

2007-08-26T10:53:00.000+08:00

chi kuan's birthday.....and outside the cheese prata shop

random pix, christine and i with andrew

at the steps of the foyer, entrance of our home for the next 2 years and hopefully 3rd, prince georges park residence

doing some crazy poses, ok...a lot of silly funny poses.....

while enjoying the view, calm and peaceful....

Nursing Orientation Camp at Aloha Loyang Aug 1-3

2007-08-25T00:15:00.000+08:00

chalet at aloha loyang, day 1 food hunt race around singapore

day 2, after station games in the morning, at noon, we had cooking competition

where after the judges tried the food, it was our turn to finish our own hard work

and then at nite, nite walk....and meeting our mentor plus the no. guessing game

last day, clean up and a new bond has been made

the end and the beginning

2007-08-10T20:51:00.000+08:00

two more days and its the end, watever i was waiting for since nov 2006. and in two days time, its the beginning of my new journey, my new life in singapore. am still cuaght up, explains the long long unupdated blog....dun worry am not sick or anything ok. theres talks, events, activitied and just have sth to do which fills my time up till i have no time to post anything up. heres wat i have been up too since my last post and i shall find some time to post in more detail about some of the things i have been doing

aug 1 wed
went to immigration to apply for my student pass. then went for my nursing camp at aloha loyang, the opposite end of singapore.

aug 2 thurs
still attending my pre-ori nursing camp

aug 3 fri
back from camp at noon, open bank account in clementi town before heading back to campus and attended the cross cultural awareness program. and nite was just crappy for me

aug 4 sat
went for the colours of singapore amazing race but left half way and end up walking around clementi town.

aug 5 sun
went to ikea again in the afternoon

aug 6 mon
had my nursing orientation briefing from noon till 6pm. then at nite went for the alumni talk which ended with a group discussion, like a support group for us freshmans. my nursing fren just moved in to pgp, so i helped her moved in too

aug 7 tues
morning went to ang mo kio, participated in the flag day for our medicine/nursing faculty. went of around 1pm and then hang out at clementi bought some stuff. nite, attended a talk with the alumni again and rushed back to celebrate one of our frens birthday

aug 8 wed
others were busy bidding and me, just took a rest and helped them too.

aug 9 thurs
happy 42th nationals day singapore!!! joined the support group for a tree top walk at macritchie reservoir park and then at nite dinner at one of the alumnis house, had steamboat.

aug 5 fri
bidding continues for the rest and i settled my room.....spring cleaning, half way done actually. and i guess its about time to settle down before class starts.

aug 6 sat
gonna be collecting my student pass at the immigration in the morning and later go to the padang for nus rag day....

details coming rite up...

still caught up

2007-07-31T22:07:00.000+08:00

registration and matric fair was today. finally and officially an nus student. got lotsa goody bags and stuff. damn funny...cos when i was at the matric fair, suddenly 3 girls say you also from nursing??? and i was like so shocked but glad to be able to meet them. showed them to my room cos they werent sure they wanted to stay on campus. i had to go back to my room cos the bags and gifts are soo heavy till my hand wanna patah already.
then at 12pm, met up with andrew and went to yih, thats like near the registration fair to have lunch. then christine came along too. christine and i went to check for the phone plans of singtel while andrew went for registration. while waiting for him, we went back to yih lounge room and kinda lingered around the place, went to it co-op. then as he was finally matriculated, seeing he had a science bag, christine and i wanted to get one too, so we went back in. security kinda tight, only freshmans are allowed to go in. and poor guy had to wait for us. of cos, for the three of us, we were altogether exhausted cos been walking around, up and down the stairs and hill. by the time we came back to our rooms, i think it was around 4 plus. went straight to the shower as i was like soaking wet. today apparently was the first day it din rain. explains the sweat. then sorting our my goody bags, uj later came by to have a chat in my room. and at 6 plu, uj, andrew and i went over to yih again, for dinner while meeting the rest and the alumni ppl where at 7pm we had a talk on how to be successful in life thru nus. until now, am back, posting this, and exhausted. i paid for a drink without taking a drink....explains my tiredness rite??

alrite, gotta pack for tomorrows camp till fri. tomorrow morning gonna go down to ica immigration to get my student pass as i want to get the singtel phone plan. without it i cant apply for it. gotta go at 630am cos ppl say there will be a lng queue. then rush back to nus get the phone and then i gotta go to the camp site which is at aloha loyang alone. actually i am suppose to meet the other nursing students at 830 and then attend a concert around 11 then leave for the camp site at 2pm. looks like i gotta go alone. oh please god, please let everythign run smoothly....no queue, early application for student visa, successful in obtaining my tsudent pass and also my passport, get my phone plan and in time to join the rest to the camp site so i dun have to go alone. ya, i guess thats it.....i pray to get my student pass settled before 12pm!!

thats it for today. back on fri....

SG now part 2

2007-07-30T22:49:00.000+08:00

28/7 sat
the nite tour, we brought around town, basically near the padang and that nite was the rehearsal for their sg national day celebration. got to see a few fireworks. then went to mustafas, which is like the only 24 hour shopping centre in sg. had supper, where my fried rice was a huge portion. and then when we came back, chatted a lil while before we head back to our rooms. and i called it off for the day at 1am sun.

29/7 sun
morning woke up and i posted the previous part. then off to lunch with two new frens of mine, shereen and chi kuan. then off to ikea. smaller compared to kl. prices are kinda similar if not more exp. but some stuff are cheaper too. well, i bought the file folder box, the basic cartont type, two for 10cents and supposedly a paper dustbin but am using it as a storage box which cost 20cents. i also bought a cupboard organiser for 4bucks as i really dun like the cupboard layout. and then by the time we got back to pgpr, it was 630pm as we had some obstacle before leaving ikea. oh ya, hot dog with soft drink was delicious in ikea. anyway, at 7pm, went to the central library for the cors talk and it lasted till 10 plus. waiting for the bus for about half an hour since it was a sunday, i guess i slept again at 1am after my shower.

30/7 mon
filled with stuff to settled today, i guess sometimes its better to do it alone than promising ppl. anyway, realising that i was sing wireless all along, and not lan cable, i knewtoday i had to go the co-op to buy a cable cos the connection is soo unstable which just annoys and irritates me. paid my fees and trying to figure out the unstable internet connection, today i had the company of ex-taylorian sam frens too, andrew and joan. well, joan, kinda have the same problem for the internet. trying to fix it, we both decided to bring it to the it centre. and it was concluded that it was our lan port in our rooms that was causing the problem. but i guess not now, as i bought a lan cable and my internet is perfectly fine. having lunch at yusof ishak house, i have to conclude now that my residence canteen really really is kinda bad. after lunch, when to co-op and bought the cable, head back to our room to put back our laptops and then out to clementi with christine coming along too. i wanted to go clementi so i can top up my ez link for the camp and buy some stuff while the rest went to the bank and also shopping. and at nite, dinner and chat with chi kuan, andrew, christine and joan. finally a nite in my room. din wanted to go suntec cos am afraid i will get too exhausted plus am not feeling really well. gonna call my day now.

tomorrow i have registration and matric fair to attend. at nite, another talk and aug 1 to 3 camp plus aug 4 race!! i hope i dun break down hehe

thanks for the company and glad to have known all of you, my new frens.....

SG now

2007-07-29T11:43:00.000+08:00

been a while since i have posted anything, or should i say, eversince i left kuching, i haven posted anything from singapore. well, thats because i was caught up with lotsa stuff. i know some of you are wondering wat am i up too. and no, am not lazy to blog or anything. i tot i am gonna have plenty of time to relax before uni officially starts on 13 aug, but i was wrong. there are just so many events and activities going on. and even now, am tired and exhausted. so tot i would just summarize wat events they were/are

25/7 wed
arrived sg, checked in to the room, went out to open bank account but was too late. met the kuching guy, doing the same course as me. dinner at 7pm with the malaysian student league. irene, who is an ex-nus student brought us to the chill out room. played cluedo, where IIII finally won for once, won twice actually. slept at 2am

26/7 thurs
woke up early at 7am. why? need to sit for QET exam. after the exam, irene brought chang mei, uj from sri lanka and i to clementi town. had lunch while waiting to open our dbs bank account, around 1pm. processing it takes a week, and after done with changs tuition loan, walked the whole of clementi town and before we head back to the campus, we did some grocery shopping. by the time we got back it was already 5 plus then after a short shower and rest, dinner at the canteen with the msl again before being brought to the watch them play captains ball at the bb court. missed the times we played captains ball in the hall at lodge. played till midnite.

27/7 fri
gathered at foyer of pgpr at 1pm the international student ofi began from 2pm till 6pm plus. and by the tme we got back to our room, it was nearly 7pm where the captains ball competition was suppose to start. we went to watch and after 12 grps battled,the 2 malaysian teams won first and second place, continuing last years reign. by the time we all settle down it was 1am, and that was not it for the nite. supper, brought by the seniors to fong seng. journey, wasnt really worth it, takes half an hour to reach compared to last years my place asia cafe less tahn 5 minutes or js too. slept at 3am.

28/8 sat
went to the faculty of eng/archi canteen to have lunch, food was so much better than the ones in pgpr and cheaper too. then chang mei went to meet her aunt while uj and i went around archi faculty. she is stuydying archi. then we walked around outside the faculty which brings us to the fong seng place. and then walked all the way back to campus. seems near but far. by the time we got back to our room, it was like 5pm. and then at 7pm, we assembled at the foyer again for the sg nite tour, organised by the alumnis. irene, danielle, alex and cynthia were some of the alumnis. went to ....

continue later, off to ikea first.

one long nite/day i hope...

2007-07-23T18:20:00.000+08:00

i seriously hope that tonite will pass by sooo slowly although i still have tomorrow nite. but you see leaving at 11 on wed doesnt make me count tomorrow nite the last nite, as by the time i wake up on wed morning, off i go to the airport. so yea, i hope tonite and tomorrow will just pass by so slowly...

finished packing already!!! well, not entirely, still got some stuff to pack but that will do it tomorrow. i guess i finally know my coursemate who also hails from kuching @ lionels orchestra mate @ jocelyns cousin @ c. dianas ex student.....wern lunn!! dunno if you are gonna read this but just wanna say a big HI!!! now since i din know you found out bout my blog a long time ago.

i really hope tat i am gonna be prepared as i leave kuching/msia. and also face watever challenges that is instored for me. i pray that i wont be up to the point of quitting, detouring, or just regretting any decisions that i have made!

oh well, only time can tell.....

TIME...
will heal anything
will change everything

and this i dedicate it to you and you and you and ME!!! hehehe! hopefully you three knows who you are......ask me if you are unsure.

out again....will it be the last???

2007-07-20T18:02:00.000+08:00

today, went out again, for lunch with chang and bernie....the three musketeers who has been going out together since march??? so i tot before chang and i leave, we should go out once again and have a meal together.

had mdm tangs, beef noodle and nasi lemak. then i ordered the guilingao with honey, just to feel our time before 2pm, going bings. and i guess the guilingao was the verrryyyy bitter type. i only reason i wanted to have it is to detoxify my body.

leaving mdm tangs at 2pm, we left for bings. chieh called us out for a drink there. but too bad, chang and i couldn stay for long cos got stuff to do after that. it was worth the dropping by cos at least we get to meet frens rite!!?? yi chieh and lionel!!! lionel is leaving tonite by the way

and before going back home, i dropped by my ex-add math tuition teachers house. and now, again, doing the same thing like yesterday....five days and counting

feeling......a lil excited

><

2007-07-19T17:52:00.001+08:00

one by one, everyone is leaving. first was kim hoon. then deanne yesterday. kevin today. lionel tomorrow. bing coming soon.

just came back from a day at stellas house, finishing the out of date form 5 pix and also sending kevin off.

now reading emails from the nursing grp which can like reach 50 messages after one nite. also just found out that lionel actually knows the person who is also going for nursing in NUS, the one c. diana leong mentioned to me.

feeling ------empty

a week left and counting...

2007-07-17T18:03:00.002+08:00

just came back after a long day out. morning, out with my dad and dads fren for my termination of visa. also paid bills, settle some of my parents stuff.

lunch at open air market, though i am suppose to meet up with stella them all at toms. after my lunch with my dad and his fren, they dropped me off to join with the rest. after lunch at toms, we went iglool. sat at the kids corner.

i din wanted to go out actually, since i did mention to myself that this week was all for me, family, and home. but i guess i made the correct decision in meeting them up just now....cos i get to meet up with bing another time, then phey feng and kiong, haven met them eversince they came back and also gabriel

now that i am back at home, i just had my bath....was dreading for one, eversince the hot sun is dominating kuching at noon.

then reading my inbox.....floodded with messages from my nursing group. kinda scary reading all of them actually...i mean sgns, talking about their education and ccas?? i dun even know wat some of them are talking bout.

after that gonna be back on my photo album.....yup, the really long overdue pictures of form 5 which i haven pasted in my photo album. rushing to finish it so stella and i can have a nite chat while looking at the pix.

fyi, FINALLY i finished my sis cross stitch...thats basically the only reason i can start work on my photo album. although i haven done the outlining but i considered it done.

7 more days and counting....crap, time pass really fast!!

wat i had = wat i hope/am

2007-07-15T12:03:00.000+08:00

fun, relaxed = i wan another round of it
time, time = i cant wait, i can wait
torn, broken = hurting, still recovering

A to Z - Loving You Just Seems So Hard

2007-07-14T22:37:00.000+08:00

I hate you, but i love you
Without love, there will be no hate

Why is it so hard, for me to love you
no
Why is it so hard, for you to accept my love
Why is it so hard, for you to understand me
Why is it so hard, for you to understand
that i do truly love you

You may not realise it, but if only you knew
I wonder, will things be different then
how you are gonna treat me
how you are gonna think of me

Have you ever tot who I truly am
no longer a childish lil girl
but one who thinks
for herself and others
caring for your well-being

Have you ever tot wat i am doing
is all for you
I came back for you
to be with you
to share my love for you
as i know that time is running out

But my return
may be it was a mistake
as we always end up in a mess
harsh words are being said
painful acts being done

You blame me
while I blame myself
for being different from the elders
for not being who you wanted me to be
though i try every single day
with all my hard and all my soul
but still fail
I dunno who to turn to
apart from HIM

Every lil thing that you said
hurts me, breaks me
giving way for my tears
to roll down my cheeks

I know about that statement
That was mentioned
many years ago
when I was young
Four white and one black??
You may not know that I knew

I knew it alrite
And have always kept it
in my heart, my mind
And I knew from that very day
that I was different
that I can never be the same like you
that I will be always against you
And that I can never share my love with you
even as much as I want to

Theres so much I wanna say
Theres so much I wan you to know
But it just cant be done
Because of our differences

I wonder whether you will ever know
all this, wat I am thinking
And that I love you so very much
And that I din mean to hurt you
Because no matter wat happenes
I will always LOVE YOU
P n M
But it just SEEMS SO HARD

CLock is ticking

2007-07-14T20:03:00.001+08:00

counting the days, only a week plus 3 more days left for me to enjoy home sweet home.

Monday and Tuesday
working, helped in taylors office cos the two education cunsellors were outstation again. Was nice to have stella and chang mei teman me at the quiet office. Kevin was temanin me thru the phone
Went out for dinner on Monday nite and Tuesday finally got to spend time at home. Joanne and called and asked me out for harry potter on wed but couldn’t

Wednesday
Girls were supposed to meet up at bings place at noon but couldn’t go. Had to go to office again and later dental appointment. HUGE HUGE fight with my parents…dad actually. Well, went I call it a fight, its definitely a biig problem alrite cos my dad is nobody you wanna mess with went he gets angry and I must say he was furious that morning. So there goes my mood for the rest of my Wednesday. I actually had a bad bad bad feeling on Tuesday when talking about Wednesday’s plans. And I guess I was rite, my heart was right, my intuition was right…dinner at nite again with frens.

Thursday
Had another visit to dentist again and went to ftms to settle my studies off. Well, termination of my student pass din go very well. Gotta go back on Monday again for the letter and immigration to terminate my visa. Supposed to meet up with phey feng but too bad had stuff to settle. Guess a day reserved for her and kk whos gonna come back this weekend.

Friday
day to watch harry potter. Chang mei picked me up at about 1pm and had lunch chicken rice behind hock lee. Chatted, chatted of course, I mean where theres food and place to sit, talking is the only thing we can do besides eating. Since the movie as at 4pm, we went over to crown tower first, thinking to pick her sis up. We both certainly are not the window shopping type of person, and we end up at causeway restaurant for a drink. As it was about time, picked stella up from parkson and off we went to star. Kinda predicted lotsa lodgians there as they just finished their exams. Indeed we were rite. Met tiffany chuo there. So watching the movie was me, chang, stella, kev and Bernie. Then lionel came to join us. But there were others that we knew, juniors from lodge, lazy to mention.

How was the movie….honestly, I din read the book, but I must say it was pretty bad. I dunno. It doesn’t really have any wow/x factor that keeps any part of the movie memorable. No wonder shih yang dinw anted to watch cos he says its gonna be a disappointment comparing to the book. i dunno, maybe because of the bunch of girls, you know who, sitting behind me kept on kicking the chair so restless and kept on commenting, harry so cute la, this and that….sooo annoying.
After the movie, about 6.30pm, lionel left first, had family dinner I think. Since it was too early to have dinner, Bernie suggested to go waterfront cos he wanted to get sth there. Refusing to tell us, its finally an ice blended drink that he wanted. Sitting on the bench, we thought of where to eat. Chef at home, banquet, travillion….in the end, went to bernies aunt food network, nk, along jalan keretapi. Before heading back to bern’s house for cluedo….we went over to banquet to have dessert. And four round of cluedo before we all went back. Stella left after banquet to meet up with her frens from west Malaysia.

Saturday/today
Rainforest world music festival is now on by the way. Bern and chang were supposed to go but no tix. I already had in mind that this weekend is gonna be a homey weekend. And guess with the rainforest not on for some of them, we decided to take it slow at our homes for this weekend. Well, just hope that everything goes smoothly at home, you know relationships with your family, the two girls should be agreeing on me with this.

A to Z - Frens? Companion?

2007-07-07T21:04:00.000+08:00

It is easy to find frens, but hard to find companion.

You may have many frens, but not a single companion.

Could life be worth living then?

Which one are YOU?

Fren?

Companion?

or NONE?

- inspired from Datin Diaries the series -

7/7/07

2007-07-07T19:52:00.000+08:00

'Sevens' day, obviously there will be tonnes of copules tieing their knot and lotsa cryings in the hospitals...just wondering, why not wait for another year plus another month plus another day...wont that be even special??

its july!!!!, 7th somemore, my goodness, less than 20 days....oh boy, my feelings are rather up and down. excited to start uni, but sad to leave malaysia, my home for 14 year. cos knowing that next 7 years i will be wat chris said the kiasu land, makes it more painful as i dun even know when i will get to stay in malaysia like how i use to before.

ok, most of you probably wont understand wat am talking bout. forget it then....been out these few days.....yup, till i kinda miss my home!! laying on the couch watch tv and sleep. hehe. i know my mums complaining....go out everyday, weather is sooo hot, later get sick. touch wood, i say. and i guess i haven spend my time much at home...

monday, out town met val and stella, nite bing's party!

tuesday, cut my hair short

wednesday, went to school with the rest then noon with stella and val

thursday, busy with my dad, oh and nite!!! dinner at bella italia with stella, chang, kev, shih yang and bernie. then watch transformers where later at the end of the movie, we met simon and the bunch. supper at open air market, porridge. FINALLY i went there....well, bernie was saying, sherly are you staying in kuching or not??? cos i have never been there to eat. then stayed overnite at stellas place. where of course, we din sleep till 4 am.

friday, woke up at 10am, talk and talk again to stella, before leaving her house to taylors office, get keys. yup, keys so monday and tuesday i can take care of the office. then, tried to go online, but stupid tm net cacat unstable line....piss me off, so i go to sleep...and nite, sleep early too!!

and finally now, the line is stable, i get to check my email and nus stuff, which i suddenly dun feel like wanting to know about it... eg, cors?? i have no idea wats it, and am suppose to familiarise with it before i start uni but am just lazy to find out about it now

weird isn it....when you have sth with you, but yet you dun feel like attending to it....but when you dun have sth with you, you feel anxious and look forward for it.

and some people are ust annoying....i cant think of a word.....i mean, they can think and say it but never execute it themselves....its like they are not thinking bout themselves when saying it.

A to Z - Casu Consulto

2007-06-30T00:33:00.000+08:00

ACCIDENTALLY on PURPOSE

out = movie + food + frens + interview

2007-06-30T00:21:00.000+08:00

wednesday, was my last class of cat accounts....well, i still have a mock exam but i guess i am just too lazy to sit for it, since i wont be sitting for my finals anyway. after my noon class, chang mei picked me up and we went to parkson. at 7pm, we watched fantastic four, we, meaning chang mei, kevin, elsie, bernie, leonard and i. as usual bernie and the rest were late. but this time, wasnt as late as Pirates. movie was just ok too me.

after the movie, gabriel and albert joined us after watching a movie at star. oh forgotten to mention, chang and i bumped into poh liung and his girlfriend before the movie. been ages since we have met him.

supper, we went over to jalan song. lionel joined us. later, the rest went over to bernies house to play excluding me. lionel sent me back cos i was kinda tired. had series to watch and also, din wanted to bother chang mei having to send me back home again late nite.

thursday, lunch together at green hill corner. this time with chang mei and lionel, where we met andrew, lil bro, who just got back. leonard and albert joined us later but sadly, the beef noodle stall were closing. so we moved on to secret recipe to have cakes while the other two had their lunch. and boy, kuching is such a small city....met sharifah and lilian. and surprisingly, ann nyee was sitting at the back of me. it was really lucky i would say to be able to meet my old international fren buddy again. i tot misisng the chance in kl, i wouldnt be able to meet up again before i leave.

sending chang mei back home, i brought lionel to iglool. and chatted till it was nearly 4. and since he had to pick up his lil sis in lodge, we moved to kaya toast tabuan jaya. kaya toast wasnt our dish but rather teh c and lionel had soft boiled eggs. all in all, chatted for a whole two hours with my big bro.

since lionel was too deprived from going out eversince he got back, he wanted to go out again at nite. setting chilax as the place, 8.30pm. chang mei picked me up and when oevr to chilax. too bad lil bro couldnt make it. we were there early, where the back of the shop was opened but the front was closed. bernie did say chilax is one crazy shop where they open and close anytime they want. albert and leonard joined us later. all four of us are like crazy ppl waitin in the car while waiting for the shop to open and lionel the gang to come. but minutes later, the back of the shop was closed. so it was obvious that they were not open for the nite.

i guess lionel had his wish granted on wanting to go bings as we make our way there. ordering our drinks and sitting for about 30 minutes, we were approached by 2 americans. students who wanted to conduct an interview with malaysian youth culture. so we chatted for i guess around 2 hours. before 10, albert and leonard left to watch transformers. so five of us were talking happily, expressing our views to them. it was a weird meeting i would say, as if it was only us frens, we wouldnt be talking bout polictics, economics, culture and everything. but last nite, it was cool to express our views.

after that, we chatted, or basically we were all kinda drained out, with 'heaty' bings and bings 'sweety' drinks. as they close their doors, we left and met rusydie on our way to the car. its fun to go out and bumping into your old schoolmates after being separated for a long time. and that wraps up my last two days. i was just full....of the food and drinks thats in my stomach. other food that i tot i wouldnt have at this point of time was laici, soursop and plum. i guess those fruits are beyond my expectations as desserts.

one more day left and july comes...counting the days will be the last thing i would want to do but unfortunately, i think my brain is just crazy bout time.

To All

2007-06-23T23:21:00.000+08:00

Been a while since i 'write', and as i was reading thru my quote book, my hands just wrote this.

(HISTORY)
You made me feel strong, when i was weak.
You made me feel wanted, when i was lonely.
You made me feel safe, when i felt insecure.
But most important of all,
You made me feel special and loved,
when i tot i was not worth living.

(PRESENT - Question)
How could i not realised then,
wat you have done to me;
wat you have said to me;
how i felt about you.

(Truth)
If only you knew.
If only my heart could speak.
If only i had the courage,
to let you know that,
you're the one i seek;

(Endless Hope)
And that things will be different,
before, now and after.

(Confession)
Its not your fault, i must say.
You gave me the hints, made the first move.
But it was I, who was blinded then;
blinded over things i tot was worth more to deal with,
till i overlooked at you,
making you an outcast in life.

(Regret)
Reading thru my book of life,
many have i done wrong in your chapter.
I was not observant, with your actions.
I was not connecting, with your words.
And worse of all,
I was not thinking between your lines.
I have failed to complete the pieces of your puzzle;

(Realisation)
until now, when i saw the whole picture,
the unforgettable stories and memories,
that was marked, engraved
in your chapter of my book.
It's too late now,
as we are both in 2 different world,
chasing our dreams,
changing as time goes by.
There's no one to blame,
except for me, myself and i.

(NOW & 4EVER)
I caused you to end
my chapter in your book of life.
It's a point of no return.
Praying for the best for you
is the only thing i can do now.
I just wonder how its gonna be like
when you knew all this
and that I miss you
every minute, every second,
my fren.

of love bites and lack of sleep

2007-06-19T17:35:00.001+08:00

thats wat i got after the damai trip....lotsa mosquitoe bites and sleep deprived.
but of course, thats not just it....the fun, relaxation that we had during the one nite stay was worth it. this time, the trip was a lil dif.

we din take any ppl shots except one but many scenary shots.
we din bring much junk food up, so we bought up there, but end up not eating much, so we brought home with more junk food instead.
it was soooo NOT hot, unlike the last time we went, din get tanned. in fact, we felt rather cold due to the rain and wind.
plus, 5 of us, and 7 dishes for dinner....all clean!

fri morning, chang mei, chris, sandra, bernie and i met at mcd third mile. only cm, bern and i had breakfast. heading off after that, we had some moments of laughter in bernies car. one was of cos, me, who needed the toilet kinda urgently. another was the jokes that we all made and the bumpy rides to damai was very fun for us three sitting at the back.

after checking in to our superior room by the poolside, we relaxed in the room. the weather was sooo perfect, not sunny but cloudy and windy. then, we played the pathetic mini golf where, half way thru, it started to rain.

(A)the pathetic mini golf, where the platform itself isnt flat
(B)the rainy view of damai and the kids village view from our room

back to the room we went and played uno and cluedo. after a few rounds, when the rain starts to stop, we went out to the kids village. went up to the tree house, played the rope thing, which we all are like so sakai/suku/gundu/jakun never play before, but the fact was we did play last time in lodge playground. then just as we wanted to climb the monkey bar, the rain starts to fall again......back to the room we went, waited for the rain to stop.

our flip-flops, shot inside the tree house and the 4 suku ppl, who never play the rope thing

the beach called. it was about 4 or 5 at that time with a lil drizzle. and as usual, the four of them were out at the sea, playing with the waves while me walking around the beach, yet another perfect calm and peaceful moment. i joined them later as they were about to leave. down the swimming pool they went until the guard shooed us of the pool for not wearing swimming attire. since we all had to take turns to use the washroom, bernie and sandra went first. while chang mei, chris and i enjoyed ourselves again at the kids village, just right behind our room. managed to climb up the moneky bar and boy, climbing and sitting on top of the monkey bar, gazing at the blue sky was yet another wonderful moment.. and the one of the two reason i came to damai was to see the sunset. of course, there was no sunset to be seen as it was cloudy. but eventhough there was no sun to see at the horizon, theres still part of the bright orange sun thats still worth watching. i dun wanna miss another chance of enjoying the sunset moment AGAIN, after '05 st john camp permai trip

starving our way thru to buntal for dinner, it sure was quite a long journey. went to makan seafood at lim hock ann restaurant, where most of us always went. 5 ppl, 7 dishes and we finished it all. had fried rice, small kailan, butter prawn, fried calamari, thai style chix, o chien and black pepper crab. the crab was 1.1kg and only chris, cm and i ate it. it was definitely filling, and the food were delicious too. food pix coming soon, wait till sandra sends it to me

back at the hotel, we lingered around on the bed before heading to the bar. there, we played bluff and it was my first time i think. bern and chris drank till their faces were soooo hot, enough to cool my cold hands. i din drink cos i felt bloated and i regretted later for not joining them. there were soooo many stars in the sky when we left for dinner, but by then, they all disapperared. sitting at the beachside, just listening to the sound of the waves was just very calming, i just loved it. as mosquitoes were shooing us away plus the cold brezze played more cluedo instead of zzzz. when it was time to sleep, it was nearly 4am, a time where some of us tot of waking up to have a stroll on the beach.

anyone who knows me know i am a light sleeper. so at 4am i think, sandra went out first. my alarm was set at 5am, and just as i was having a good sleep, my alarm rang. 5am, it was still pitch black so i tot of going at 6am. but chris alram was snoozing every 10 mins, oh wait, no, correction, 9 mins he claimed, so in the end, din get much decent sleep. when i went to the beach, meeting up with sandra, it was just perfect. the sky was soooo clear. yet part of them were filled with clouds. all kinds of blue were protrayed at the sky. it was cool and windy. just sooo refreshing. the power of nature, was just amazing. sandra was filiming and was just walking....then chris came. as it was about 7, sandra went back, claimed shes a vampire, allergic to the sun. funny her. and as for bernie and chang mei, well, they are both busy counting sheeps, sleeping in their dreams.

as the sun was almost up, where shadows of elongated us shown on the sand, we went back to our pitch black room. trying to get some sleep, it was almost impossible as the corridors of the rooms, were kinda noisy, the cleaners. dozed off a lil while me, until 1030am, where everyone is almost up. remembered bernie suddenly asking wat times the breakfast. missed it of course. all of us, ALL, were still lazy to get up. you know, the kind of feeling where we are in bed, not wanting to rise but just lay on the bed and relax.

as we checked out before 12pm, we head back to town. choosing a place to makan, guess where did we had lunch,....JADE POT....better than nothing. it was along the way. i was exhausted, not sleeping the whole nite, not to mention, previous nites too cos of the dumb dumb post office late in sending my letter. tot of sleepin on the ride home, somemore bernie had two cushions, but of cos, cant, very bumpy but indeed fun ride!! like wat chris said to me, no way you can sleep in the car.

lunch at jade pot, tats when my love bites showed its true colour. went to church in the evening, and there i stumbled again, bruising my right leg. i guess i had the aftereffect of sleep deprived, as claimed by chang mei and chris. cos at nite, around 10pm, meet up again with bernie, chris and chang mei plus edine and dn, i stumbled yet another time at bings. as bings was full, we went to living room, a place which has cushions and pillows, and it sure does make me wanna sleep. by the time i got back home that nite, i din leep striaght away, but watch a movie before it was sweet dreams at 2.30am

thinking i could wake up late on sunday morning, it was certainly in my dreams, as i had to follow my parents to visit a fren of ours. as it was fathers day and my dad, who was feeling rather syok sendiri, wanted to have dinner. i was like wat??? cos it was never, and i say never, for us to go out makan on the special day itself. which was why, last week, i celebrated fathers day dinner already. but oh well, it was his nite, so you guessed it, my noon nap was gone.

theres always a monday morning that i can get up late but i guess that was reserved for my medical chech up which took hours at kpj. thank goodness, chang mei was there too. and at noon, i had class. tot of skipping it since, i memang am not gonna finish the course and ppl was like, NOOO, sherly you cannot and dun skip class. now, you see the other side of me. and finally, last nite, baru i had a good decent sleep till this morning. had to send my letter back to nus.

thinking i already had my share of piggy piggy????... of course not, still wan my sleep and my legs are still itching their ways cos of the love bites i got. i mean i cant blame anyone for it....spending almost half the time at the beach, love bites is the present i had from damai. i probably cant wear any shorts or skirts for a week or two. lets just hope there arent gonna be any scars cos i am sure gonna cry for that.

meanwhile, still have loads to settle...forms, applications and all before everyone starts coming back next week

i am not ready to move on

2007-06-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

i am feeling tired. there is so many things in my mind now!

i am full after a day of food food and food.

i need a moment of my own, i know i need it but am scared to have it cos by the time i have it, things are gonna change.

my feelings, emotions are so jumbled up now ...... friendship....love....separation

i have to accept, i have to, its sth i know i should be able to handle this acceptance ages ago...
but apparently, am not....

i never realised the real truth of an incident till the time has come or is around the corner

i am not ready to move on...

God, please give me the strength to accept and move on with everything that is in mind...

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so wat food did i have today??

dinner, my parents and i went to restoran pondok laguna, crown tower. new place actually just opened in may. and kinda obvious the name shows its indonesian food...and i was soo excited when i found out and finally today i get to try it out.

overall, it was just ok. gonna give it another chance though cos they are still soo brand new, so need a lil bit of adjustment on the food taste esppecially the sambal belacan. come on, thats sooo important in indo food rite??? without that, no use having great dishes like lalap, sup buntut, gurame goreng and all those

here on the left, is pepes ayam....i really dunno how to translate it but oh well, am actually posting these up for the sake of my sis. so you should know wat it means. and on the rite, ikan bakar, which is superb for the nite!!! its fantastic. they certainly did well for this dish. the sauce was good...generous in their kicap manis topping...

and tauhu kipas, well, so so, i think mum does it better. and the sambal as you can see, was disappointing, cos apparently tonite, its a local who did it, no wonder not spicy and 'pang'/harum at all!! i forgotten to take the pix for sup buntut and lalap. well, all dish has its bad point except for my avocado juice and certainly the fish!!

drinks, i have avocado juice, which is sooo yummy, kinda paid off coming here and have this since my two aunts could bring any from ptk since its not the season. and dad had es teler which was so so and mum kelapa muda which is a no no.

overall, tauhu kipas, too hard compared to mums, perhaps tooo crunchy i guess. not so good rite.
then pepes ayam, so so. sup buntut, toooo bad it wasnt hot enough. i mean serving it in a wide opened bowl will def def cools down the soup damn fast. lalap, the veg, they made a mistake by preparing it and then keeping it in the freezer which makes the veg not so crunchy feeling. lastly, the fish was amazing!!!

and also my avocado juice, ta pau another one home...and yet another rm 5.
price wise, drinks are the killer of course if compared to the food. but its standard price i guess.

before dinner, i was having more food. bernie, chang mei, chris and i had lunch at toms. having beef pie this it was just nice for me, but after having some of berns fries, oops, i was full. we tot toms had wi fi but nooo. forgotten to mention, today was a day of discussion and plans. and indeed all went well....except for the main obj of obtaining series from chris. haha. since toms had no wifi and then bings was full, we went to scoops. but there was a big problem there. power points...and all our battery were nearly flat. having horlicks, pink guava and pistachio as our dessert, when i got home i felt sooo full and less than an hour, makan again. back to the point, off we went to chris's house as theres no other place like home which hsa everything. sth wrong with the hard disc, so the series stays in there, or for bernie, who cant get his lost series, lost is lost in the hard disc....at least i got heroes and oth.

its weird rite how our minds can handle the highs and lows of our life at the same time??

Happy BIrthdays!!

2007-06-05T11:44:00.000+08:00

gawai holidays are over.... i was bored to death at home the ast few days despite my many series and assignments....i just din feel like doing anyone of those. and thank goodness the hols are over, cos chang mei and i are waiting for sth from the postman, our letter of offers. we both got an offer from nus already and before accepting it, we decided to see wat are the terms and conditions. but its been so long they sent the mail and yet we haven received it.
i concluded that icannot have any free time cos my free time will end up to be a boring one. i just must find sth to do...its exactly like last year, 2nd sem of sam, first time i had free time in subang, i was so bored cos i had nothing to do. yesterday, i finally decided to work on my stamp albums...yes yes, for ppl who dunno, and i think most of you dun, i collect stamps, childhood hobby actually.

talked to chang mei over the phone for quite a long time yesterday, we planned on our later days of the week plan....makan and shopping, cross checking when bernie is free. then she called back and said, sherly bernie is hungry, go for lunch at toms. i was gonna have my lunch alresady with my parents but oh well, at least now i can get out of the house...i was dead bored. i just dunno why.

so off at 2pm, we arrived at toms first, but it was closed. all because of the gawai hols. then moved to secret recipe where bern and chris came along. boy, the service really sucks....it was full house again. having cakes and brownies, we moved to crown tower, to have dim sum at causeway bay restaurant. had har kau, yam puff, lo mai kai and char siew pau. by then it was about 4/5pm, and chris was saying in about an hour plus, its dinner. wat he said was correct, chris, chang and i all have early dinner but not for bernie. but wat ever it was, it sure was nice to spend time with your frens and makan and talk.

by the time it was dinner, i was still full. funny thing was, we all kept makan and makan and makan, but bernie and i hardly gain weight. and talking bout kuching, its food thats the main topic.

tomorrow, i have afternoon class. i just wish i have classes everyday, i know crazy me rite??. the three of them wished for the opposite of mine. hehe

before i forget, lionel, my big brother, happy belated birthday and to joanne, HAPPY 19th BIRThdAY!!

Pirates

2007-06-01T17:15:00.000+08:00

watched pirates at riverside yesterday with bernie and chang mei 6pm. why riverside? well, we all kinda agreed that star is kinda scary now, lousy compared to riverside. furthermore, star would probably be sardine packed but riverside not so. plus we dun have to make so mnay rounds up the carpark. buying tix about 5.30pm and looking at the seats available, its sure was gonna be a quiet theatre. however, the price was not wat as expected rm 8 but rm 10. catching some light snacks at the ground floor, we came back up at 6pm. and it really is typical right for asians/malaysians to be late rite, so we never expected the show to start on time but with few trailers at 6pm. so we went to the toilet, not wanting to miss any part of the movie. then we came out, the hall door was not open, there was no attendant. so we went into hall1 and checked, maybe it wasnt opened yet, but the show has already started...but cannot be we tot. it was pitch black and we couldnt even see our feet. out we went to check with the counter and they said the show had started, crap...we were late for 10 mins. by the time we sat, they were already at singapore. and wats worse, no tickect attendant accompanied us to our seats. bernie tot we were in the wrong hall and had to ask the guy sitting in front for confirmation. lucky he wasnt mad or anything. wats worse was, the speaker sucks....wait, not the speakers i would say but the film roll, cos sometimes it was stereo, then mono then at one point i think for a couple of mins there was no sound at all. and wats funny, no one actually went out to tell the ppl. guess we were all patient last nite.

so the tix was rm 10, we missed the beginning of the show, watching with mono/stereo speakers or even mute, no one to usher us on our seats.....anymore riverside next time??? well, we all decided to give it another chance since it was not that bad the last time any of us came. i went to watch 300 at riverside and everything was perfect. we'll see how it goes. the movie, to me, i like this better than the second one, in terms of the story line. but of course the previous one had more humour. comparing to spidey 3, i prefer this one.

finishing before 9pm, we went to walk around parkson, since it was on sale. and then fetched chris....who just got back earlier yesterday to go makan supper/dinner at chef at home. we chatted and i guess it was a series conversation!! wat series you have, help me burn!! everyone is so excited, wanting series from him. poor chris. victim of us 3 series hunters.

now that my exam is over, and next mon is a public hols i feel sooooo free. yup, sooo free. my dad will be coming back from hols with his frens in a couple of hours and my relatives are in town. tonite, makan again!
and more sleep, tv and makan!! hehe

2007-05-30T12:29:00.000+08:00

just sat for my paper 4 cost accounting exam. din get 100, oh well. but wats so unlucky for us morning batch was there was a blackout halfway thru. and our exams are computer based so yea, doing ques halfway, then blackout....we all tot we had to redo all over again. lucky me, if that was the case, i would be alrite cos i wrote all my answers down. all i have to do is to just key in without having to read and recalculate.

yesterday, miss universe 2007 in mexico city....japan won! watched the replay last nite. miss usa tripped and fell during the evening gown. and yet she managed to get into the final 5. no wonder the crowd booed her, besides the fact she tripped and fell, she had to be the victim of usa for treating mexicans badly. and perhaps, usa have to get into the final five to give face to donald trump. anyway, it was funny for me to see how miss japan reacted when she won. and esp when she performed her first walk as miss universe. she looks like she was soo scared of her mikimoto crown. anyway, i think for the answer ques session, i think korea did the worse, no offence, her answer on superpowers given by 'ando' jury in heroes was not perfect. i tot brazil answered well compared to japan but anyway, japans catwalk was well done confidently compared to others. overall, congrats to miss japan and asians i guess for japan won miss uni, philipines won miss photogenic and china won miss congeniality. asians rule this time.
and in the newspaper today, there was an article on teletubbies having to examine whethee they are gay. must be tinky winky that causes all this mess. sounds like a guy but carry red handbag. so funny. i mean i watched teletubbies last time. so cute....esp bo and la la....but when comes to tinky winky and dipsy, i just ignore it.

now that exam is over, i have so many things to do. tidy up stuff, watch pirates, watch more series...oh ya one thing that still so **** for me and cm, is our offers....which we haven received it....getting anxious about it.

still got class at 2pm. i wanna sleep.....but cant. slept late last nite cos have to study... hopefully i

dun sleep in class. meanwhile, here are some pix....yes, its at iglool again. this was on fri when we went school in the morning and mdm tangs beef noodle for lunch. and i think cm and i are going again later. seems like we are helping them in their promo.

the big penguin table at the kids corner section

where there is a replica of an igloo, where cm and i went in

while bernie is enjoying his charmy ice with the lil girl eyeing on it, backdrop of the kids corner scetion and from there, the overview of the whole shop.

i should be studying but

2007-05-25T17:08:00.000+08:00

i am not, i just cant get myself to start studying. carrying the book everywhere but i never opened it. listening to radio, watching tv, busy on the internet and out again. hehehe

yup, in the morning went over to lodge to wish the teachers a happy teachers day. since on the real day itself, we all couldnt wake up so we tot of going today, afterall, lodge celebrates its teachers day on the lsat day of school before the midyear hols starts.

bernie came over to my house and we went to school. chang mei and shusheel came later. lets just say, its rather a weird feeling to see the kids back there wearing very very very differently in their casual clothes,. different not in a good way thats for sure. guess its not like our generation.....i just dun wanna mentioned it.

after watching the kids performing, hopping into chang meis car, we went off for lunch at mdm. tangs. it was just sooo hot. guess you ex-lodgians should know the situation in the hall with so many students but limited fans. and mind you, this year, they have extra spotlights brought in to shine the performers on stage.

had beef noodles, all of us. and still feeling very very hot, before chang mei's tuition at 2.30pm, we stopped by at iglool, AGAIN. well, it sure was the rite time to makan shaved ice at that time.

but now, it looks like its gonna be raining cats and dogs. like bernie said, we need that heavy rain to clear the hazy smell air....

sounds like i have to finish studying everything this weekend since next week, beginning of the week, pirates is in our schedule and my exams is on wed. so i better prepare myself. lets just hope i dun get side track with songs or series....i just got the complete seasons of desperate housewives which i have been waiting for ages and prison break coming in line.

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2007-05-22T14:53:00.000+08:00

My classes are now on Monday and wed only and its all in the afternoon. So, am sure everyone can guess how lazy, sleepy we all are in class. Thank goodness I have steve to poke fun with, well, that is if he is present in class. Having only two days of classes in a week kinda sucks cos it makes me have no mood to study, very very very lazy to do anything useful, I mean studying. I will be sitting for my paper 4 cbe exam next week and I haven even started studying…..been busy watching tv all day long.

On Sunday Bernie, chang mei and i had dinner together at mr ho. I was sooo happy to find out a new indon restaurant opened at crown square, as there aren’t much indo food here in kuching. And before we went back we makan ice cream again at iglool. And yesterday, Monday, steve dragged me to go teman him makan during our break time afternoon class. So memalukan only, I have been to that place for 4 times in a period of 10 days. And when I told Bernie bout it he says its alrite since he has been there 3 days in a row.

Simon is back in town. The form 6s are gonna have hols soon. Same as chris who is gonna come back next week…..followed by the melb, perth and uk ppl. Kuching sure wont be that quiet anymore.

And now I gotta catch up on my newspaper readings on af. Yup, its over, demam akademi fantasia is over. Happy though, finally there is a girl who won the competition. and I also got some studying to do

wats wrong with me???

2007-05-18T12:48:00.000+08:00

i am having difficulty sleeping at nite these past few days....my head is throbbing, not to mention, just like my old migraine that i used to have but has not strike me for ages already... my body is drained out, no energy, tired. i sometimes feel pening-pening all of a sudden, you know, like wanna pengsan, black out....tak cukup darah atau garam di otak......oh goodness, all i wan is a goodnite sleep but am not having that since a week ago. please ppl, help me, give me some tips for a goodnite sleep before i turn into a panda, zombie.

and no no no ppl, i am not stressed out or worried or depressed....cos i know most of you would think i am at that stage when am facing this problem. but the fact is, i am not worried about anything, or stressed, or depressed or emotional....though my last post i did mentioned it, but its over....i moved on and this is wat i get??? oh man, i think i need to drink cooling tea since i have not mean feeling that well these past few days....

cut that ramblings of mine, guess wat my dad found at the window of my house????.....a huge butterfly.....or bernie said, a huge moth after i showed him the pix last nite when at chilax.

watever it is, its huge, enormous, gigantic, must have originated from big kepompong. the size of my palm....i think its cool to have such an enormous butterfly coming to my house, hehe....actually my house, i have found lotsa creatures, turtle, crab, beetle, snake, rat, monitor lizard, cat, dog and many more. guess kuching still has its natural ecosystem presevered!

'sien'

2007-05-15T19:31:00.000+08:00

selamat hari jururawat antarabangsa = 12 mei
selamat hari ibu = 13 mei
selamat hari belia = 13 mei
selamat hari guru = 16 mei

chatting with xin yi a while ago, she was feeling so bored eventhough exams are around the corner. so heres the formula i guess for most of you who are sitting for your exams, finals soon

exams=study=sien=lazy=bored

me, on the other hand, and perhaps chang mei, since we got back, we just felt so lazy to get back to the real world....after seeing how my frens are struggling with tests and assignments, i finally face the fact that i should enjoy my life now. this is me now

after holiday=back to reality=sien/lazy=free time=think/watch series/listen to songs=beautiful meaningful lyrics/poems=nostalgic memories=emo

the Vacation

2007-05-14T22:47:00.000+08:00

off to kl and sing, stories are as follows....

fri 27 april*KCH-KL*
at 5.35pm, flew to kl from kuching with my mum. upon arrival at lcct, air asia was PROUD to announced that we arrived early....and i tot, its about time rite???

by the time we reached my second sister's place in town, bukit bintang area, it was about 8plus. had dinner, chat then off to bed

sat 28 april*BB/SUBANG*
was so lazy to go out from the condo, i just felt like sleeping, watching tv....but of course not. my sec sis, mum and i went for lunch at a restaurant in bukit bintang before i departed for subang. sitting on the monorail and ktm, i tot of how time flies by so fast...last year, i was still studying in taylors sam but now, a year has gone, uni life awaiting.

arriving at subang jaya station, while waiting for sue ann, i managed to talk to yih jing over the phone since i wont have time to meet up with her. after an hour upon arrival, finally sue ann and i settled down at starbucks and chat. seriously miss this cute girl. in two hours, we talked just about eveyrthing, from studies to life to relationships. of course, she again continued her talk why nursing sherly??...and also about the next day plans too, as in how to get huey ying to meet up at sunway so i could surprise her.

she gave me a ride back to my place apartment, going back to my old place where joanne and edine are still staying, boy, was i shocked to see my old apartment. so different, less homey, but more to a college student apartment with books and studying environment. messy as usual. after jo did her laundry, we both went to sunway for dinner, sushi king. apparently she just woke up and was very hungry. dinner, chat again, walk around then back to my place, went to asia, i insisted on that. when we got back, jo gave me a sneak preview on the latest epi of greys cos i din wanted to watch it yet.

sun 29 april*SUNWAY/IMU*
went to ckk church. that was kind of the purpose i went down to subang. after church, as usual makan berakfast then by 12, sue ann picked me up to go sunway, meeting up with yuan liang and huey ying. this plan sure took a lot of trouble as both of them werent sure whether they could go out wat time. the point is, i wanted to surprise huey ying, so i kinda like asked sue ann to ask hy out and yl who knows the whole plan, would persuade hy to go. so it succeeded, i managed to surprise hy.....lunch at kfc sunway and we just talked and talked and talked.

by 5pm, we left sunway, and that was my time with sue ann. man, gonna miss that cute girl. hopefully end of year can meet her up again before she leaves. i followed huey ying and yuan liang back to sri petaling, in other words, back to their home near imu. my plan was to stay overnite there, so in the morning, i get to meet up with the rest of my g15 classmates studying in imu. most of my ex-sam classmates are there in imu studying pharmacy. yl went out with his frens at nite, so left hy and i at home. hy, yl and i are close since g15 as we were the outstation students back then. and eversince sam was over and i was busy with my stuff, we did not kept in touch much and thats why we basically have lots to share with each other. not gonna tell you wat we talked bout but all i can say, evolution is just an inevitable process of us humans, not physically but more importantly, mentally and emotiionally. things change. ppl change. TIME changes ppl.

mon 30 april*IMU/BB*
i got up early after receiving xin yi's message that she was arriving in a while. fyi, i stayed at xin yi's room since she was not coming back the previous nite. managed to talk to her for a while on uni life and all before we all went to imu. since they all were not gonna attend their lectures in the morning, i could stay with them while waiting for yl to finish his lecture so he can lead me the way to the lrt station. boy, were they all shocked to see me....cos the nite before, hy called yap, my ex-class rep to go early, using a meeting as an excuse. happened that their club are having a sale. so yea, managed to surpirse more ppl, ying hui, shu xian and sammantha. and so lucky, i even get to meet amanda. they wanted me to stay there longer instead of going back town since the next two days were hols, but neh....gotta go back tot own and spend time with my family instead....sisters and bro-in-law.

by the time i got back to town, i was exhausted. yup, of walking. i just realised i have been walking non-stop. after the ride back, went to buy some stuff and walk back home again. and that wraps up the day as i just stayed at home, relaxing with my family. furthermore, it was then i realised, i have an interview to attend which i haven done much thinking bout it.

tues 1 may*BB/SEREMBAN*
i tot of meeting my fren who is studying in town today, but apparently, exams was around the corner. so off my plan goes for that day and i decided to go to my eldest sis place to teman her. well, she stays very near my second sis. another apartment though which require less than 5 minutes walk. her place was in a mess cos all of her housemates including herself have some packing to do. went out for lunch at my fav chicken rice shop at the corner opposite bb plaza. after that i went back to my eldest sis place before we all head to seremban to makan ketam. yup, my sisters watched this HO CHAK show on 8tv and they say the crab was good. took off at about 4-5pm, just incase we got lost. in the end, we went to wrong place but the food that we had wasnt that bad. it happened that that whole section is a place where crab is their speciality. had two types, one with salted duck egg and another marmite sauce....apparently, these two are their specialties.

wed 2 may*KLCC/BAAN26*
one day before leaving for sing, i kinda do some packing and also set aside myself to prepare for the interview. then, my sec sis said we were going to klcc since my bro-in-law wanna go gym. i never tot of going to klcc, in fact, i tot i never got a chance to go anymore before i leave for sing in aug, that is if i do. klcc, as always the place i hang out after sam classes while waiting for my siss to fin work. so off we went there, did some shopping and then after that had vietnamese food for lunch. went back to my eldest sis place until dinner at BAAN 26, thai food.

thurs 3 may*KL-SING*BUGIS*
my mum, eldest sis and i went to pasar rakyat to board the bus to singapore. using the 9am bus, we arrived in singapore at about 1pm. journey took 5 hours, less than that actually. using the transtar bus, paid rm 85 for it, using the tuas road, served with breakfast and wats cool, its got an on board waiter an also personal tv for each seat. the journey definitely did not tkae 5 hours long. during the ride, i wasnt feeling very well, upset stomach, must be the mixture of thai food plus the gui ling gao i ate the nite bfore. switching my phone to silent, my dad called me to inform that the nus ppl couldnt get thru me and that my interview has changed to 12pm fri. yeh, i tot cos the earlier it is, the faster i got to enjoy. watched spirderman2 and also star wars 3 before reaching the station.

checking in to the hotel, golden landmark hotel located at bugis area sure has a large room but unfortunately small bathroom. after resting for a while, we head of to bugis junction where i met up with chang mei. we walked the whole of bugis street, bugis village, bugis junction and up to raffles road while talking and had dinner. though they had some small sales, i just wasnt in the mood to shop. must be the interview that i am anxious about and cant wait to get over it.

fri 4 may *INTERVIEW at NUS/VIVO CITY*
went off to have lunch before heading to NUS situated near clementi road and buena vista area. fyi, my interview was in the end at 2.20pm since they did not get my confirmation for 12pm. while i was doing the questionaire, suddenly the girl outside the office told em to go in, it was only 2pm then. the 2pm girl got lost in uni and so since i was there, i went in first.

like the boardroom in the apprentice show, theres 3 interviewers where i recognised the ang mo guy as the head. wat i expected from the interview was a serious, formal interview but it turns out to be very casual friendly conversation. was it good overall? will i definitely pass the interview? i dare not answer these questions cos i really how well did i perform in there. watever i say, they use my words to ask me ques. so i cant really remember wat the ques they asked. but i know the conversation is all bout me, being an indon, but staying in malaysia, why, education where, why not aus and how to convince parents that i wan nursing, language, talk bout my family, sis, financial management and academically well or not. all that took 20 mins. i am just glad that all is over and i just leave eveyrthing up to HIS hands for the results which i will only know end of may.

after nus, we head to vivo city, sings new shopping place and spent the entire nite there. and guess wat we saw, kuching kolo mee sold there....heard of chris saying it before. i guess kuching is famous for its kolo mee

sat 5 may*ORCHARD*
its a day where we all meet our frens in sing. my mum met with her old pal and my sis, well she was suppose to meet her fren too but couldnt make it. and me, met up with chris and chang mei. had lunch together before chang me attended a wedding reception nearby. by then, chris and i walked along orchard road, chit-chatting as usual. until around 4pm, i met up with my sis who was busy shopping and that was it for our meet up. forgotten to take pix though. but i guess we are all gonna meet up again. i haven done much shopping, so that was the time i shopped.

sun 6 may*BUGIS/SING-JB-KCH/KL*
my mum and i came back to kch from johor whereas my sis left to kl. so we departed from sing to senai airport at about 3pm. before that, after packing our luggage, we managed to do some last minute shopping around bugis area. this trip wasnt much of a shopping trip for me but more to a relaxation, meeting up frens trip. finally we all got back to our respective homes by 9pm. and i obviously, for those who knew, did not go sleep straight away but went straight to catch up on my series....top of the list...AF, who went out???? and boy its the cute guy.

overall, this vacation, besides the interview, it was a fun one as i have mentioned....not much shopping, but getting to meet up with frens was the best part. unfortunately, i did not managed to meet my fren who was having exams...and that was the only setback for me i guess cos i tot of meeting up one last time before we both go our separate ways. kinda like settle our unfinished bsn before we all move on with our lives....

OMG

2007-05-14T01:06:00.000+08:00

its one in the morning, and i am still up. and its really unlike me to stay up this late doing nothing.......i guess i am just making myself tired so i can sleep better compared to the previous nites. i just dunno wat to do. i mean i do know i have tonnes of stuff to get started and settled but am just so lazy just like most ppl who are suppose to be doing their work, studying but reluctant. good luck ppl on the upcoming exams and tests, assignments!!

Damai - Iglool

2007-05-11T22:03:00.002+08:00

today, my eyes have been on my laptop screen for 10 hours....non-stop. was watching one tree hill, thanks to chris for lending me the season 3 one. lots to catch up i know. at the same time, writing replies for tonnes of ppl. and sorry sue ann for missing these past few days....so here's it....for yesterday

yesterday 10th may, edine, bernie, steve and i went to damai for a day trip. went for lunch at jade pot and by 1.30pm we reached damai beach, thanks to steve who drove us up. edine's kl frens were climbing mount santubong and had stayed overnite there....so we kinda settled down for a lil while in the room before heading to the beach. played tai ti a few rounds then the beach here we come. at first, it was raining before we go out of town, luckily it was not raining at damai. or else, we would be spending the whole day in the room.

so of course, anyone who knows me doesnt swim but i was looking forward for the beach...just listening to the waves and enjoying the beautiful view of the ocean. i guess its really relaxing. i just cant seem to think of anything when i was at the beach. your mind is jus empty

nothing....really nice, away from our daily lives. of course, the rest were swimming in the sea, while i of course had to help them jaga barang and just enjoyed my music while walking along the beach. then sherman came to join us,been ages since i met him, and he tried getting me to the sea, but of course no way am swimming. did play a lil though

wondering was i dead bored there??? alone?? of course not, thats like the best place to melapangkan fikiran and sure enough i would wanna go there again. it was hot of course, really hot and you can notice all the ang mos are busy sunbathing, enjoying the sun trying to get their tan while we all are avoiding to get darker and darker.

about 5 we head to the swimming pool, clean up and left damai cos steve has got a meeting at nite. had dinner at sarawak club. sending edine to her parents, bern and i stopped by to buy secret recipe cakes and then my turn to go home. but before heading home, we decided to go for a detour to makan ice cream....not really ice cream but shaved ice....iglool is the place, a place where bern claims is so delicious. and next to my ftms, they happen to open a new branch . gosh was just away for a week plus and a new shop has opened. iglool is actually a worldwide franchise shop. so you can go check it out at this website, www.charmyfood.com.tw the place is actually quite cool...the ambience is really nice and i give five star for it

so went to have snowed ice, i hate the one with marie cookies while bern had oreo peanut. it costs bout 4.80 and above, exp you mite say but it was kinda nice. then back home, by then it was like plus. dead tired tho i din swim like the rest. after my shower, i just realise i had lotsa cuts at my sole??? heels....must have kena the sharp stones while walking along the beach and stream. i was barefooted.

because of that, today i am like sitting down the whole with my lap top. missed youth meeting that joanne asked me to go. hope it heals fast or else, how am i gonna walk tomorrow. its just like a cracked heel but the cut is deep. oh well...... here are few pix takken in damai.....and tomorrow hopefully can post on my vacation. better stop now before my laptop burns out after 10 hours plus active

see the three dots, thats the heads of bern, steve and edine in the sea....and a pix on the cloudy sky, just take a look at the red dot, its the sun.....of course, the sun is not red but it turns out to be red when pix is taken

damai beach with very clear clean water....and lotsa rocks too

the three guys busy posing, under the hut outside the chalet where as the other pix, steve and sherman busy having their moment in the pool. hehehe

the four who swam, and me sitting out at the poolside

of me with bernie and sherman

Spiderman 3

2007-05-09T18:20:00.000+08:00

just came back two hours ago, after having lunch at hk noodles house in town and movie at star cineplex. lunch wasnt that good, i guess wat bernie and steve say was true about that branch's food not that good. steve came to pick me up and when we arrived ivan and surprisingly albert were already there. yup, been a long long time since i met albert. btw thanks for the lil gift, both you and ivan, i wonder wat i will do about it....its like a lighter, not really a lighter.....ah, you know albert and his crazy stuff. joanne din joined us for lunch cos shes got driving lessons and edine, on the other hand, had stomach upset.

went over to star to catch the 1.30pm, ivan watched already and so only five of us watched, me bern steve edine and jo. apparently, in the period of 2 and half hours, i think i yawned 3 to 4 times. well, not to say its entirely bad the movie. but it was just normal and i dunno how to say. too long, too draggy, not realistic when hello, a chaos is happenin and you are watching the chaos instead of running for you lives??? too chessy.....oh well, wat can i say.....the movie is also for kids rite.....

next in line, will be 28 weeks later, pirates of the carribean, shrek 3.....

and i know bout my vacation....still waiting for my pix, and rather lazy to blog.

MAY/MEI 7th May

2007-05-07T12:03:00.000+08:00

so may is gonna be an 'exciting' month, well, at least thats how i see it......starting off, may 1st, i was in sing, HOLS. then four days later, may 4th, attended my nursing interview at National University of Singapore (NUS).

back on may 6th. may 7th, today brings be back to the olden days, 2 years back 2005! time just past so damn fast....my surprise birthday party held at edines place then prefect telematch after that. today is a special day, a day of friendship for me, though many of you may not know it, 7th may is a special day for me, recalling the good, bad memories of the past.

in a couple of days, i am gonna start feeling old. its gonna be my last teen year. yup, nineTEEN and next year twenty, no more 'teen' word. in sing, met up with chris and we were just talking bout this whole thing, being in the last teen year and how time past sooo fast, like it just seem we all just got out of lodge form 5, but the fact is, its been two years. after a great, brilliant, wonderful threesome birthday in 2005, thanks to edine and the gang, i also had a great bday last year with my fellow ex-classmates g15 in taylors. turns out i have a fren who also has the same birthday as me. so i guess this year, its gonna be a quiet one, since i just got back from a vacation and still in my lazy mood, i think i am just gonna past for this year. we'll see.

furthermore, this weekend may 13th will be Mother's Day. so people, get prepared to celebrate with your mum. presents, gifts, perhaps a vacation. anything. its been a tradition for me actually to spend my birthday and mother's day together. sometimes we spent mothers day early but normally i spend my special day late, so its kinda like i am younger for a few more days. haha. guess this time its gonna be nite out dinner for me and my parents.

wats next on the list??? oh almost forgot, actually from now till end of the month, there are more ppl back in kuching, rather than bern, ivan, chang, calvin, steve and me. edine and adrian plus joanne is back. bern is on hols, for sure we are gonna chill. i think???? and after them, chris is gonna have his hols starting may 31th and hes coming back for june. then end june, its aus ppl, lionel!! and then more ppl, uk gang, pf and stella. oh yah!!!

may is also a month of movies rite??? spiderman 3, pirates of the carribean and also shrek 3. so its a movie month. and we all sure will take this chance to enjoy movie days on wed.

wat wraps the month of may is, well, either good or bad, offer letter from NUS. for me, chang mei and jacqueline. we are gonna know wat courses are we gonna get offered or wait, are we even accpeted by the uni!!! pray for us that we do or else me and chang will be wasting our 5 months lepaking in kuching, waiting for nothing. good thing to get the letter, finally we are starting uni and bad thing getting the letter is definitely entering uni life, no more lazyin around my couch eatting sleeping and watching movies!! but if thats wat we wanna do, then its better we dun get offered at all but of course, NO NO NO WAY, that cant happen!!!

i guess thats wat make MAY a crazy month for me. and indeed i am looking forward to all this. i wonder how next year MAY is gonna be like.....wat about your May month???

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to my fren,
time sure flies fast
we barely knew each other before this day
but after today
we find ourselves supporting each other
as a fren
perhaps more than just a normal fren
if that was the case
when i actually opened my eyes
at that point of time
not blinded by ... i dunno wat
daring and encouraging
but yet that din happened
and now things have changed
you have changed
so do i
time changes people
we got lost in time
as we chase for our own time
and regret is the only feeling
when we look back to our past
but nonetheless
today is a special day
for i have known you
as you indeed brought shine into my life
making me more matured
making me realise that i am who i am
not waiting for things to happen
but make things happen
and that my frens love me
no matter where and when
you made me feel how special i am
and though now i dunno
where your presence are
in this wide world
i just wanna say
on this special day
that you are indeed
a special one
and you are always in my heart

Back

2007-05-07T11:25:00.001+08:00

after ten days to kl and sing, finally am back home. it was definitely a fun trip, got to meet my frens and enjoy, relax. of course, had to go for the interview. wait, i also din get to meet three of my frens, one of them who i dearly miss. but i understand, exams and studies are more important!!! it was also a damn tiring trip. i guess i have been lazying around in kuching, being at home for too long, never exercise, walk until now i feel so drained out, exhausted. the minute i step out of the house, i find myself walking. i guess thats the difference living in a big city and a small town. small town, got cars to bring you right where you want whereas in big city, driving may not be the best choice but instead walking and using public transport is the best. so after a 5 month lazy period, i find myself walking non-stop when at kl and sing. at subang, around bukit bintang area, going back to my sis condo, shopping, walking around sing, where ppl walk damn fast one, at orchard and bugis. its always WALKING and man, my legs and feet kinda hurt right now. actually its kinda my fault cos i din bring my walking shoes but rather sandals. overall, plain tired, thats just it.

was lying in bed, and that was the only statement i could conclude at this point of time. i am just tired.....physically, mentally and emotionally....yup, but am gonna spoil my blog post because of my tiredness mood...no no no way. let me recuperate first ok??? when i gain some energy back, gonna blog all bout my trip and why may is one hell of a month for me.

besides, i also got class to attend, remember my accounts class, being away made me kinda lose my interest attending class now. but i paid for it, so of course, i am not gonna throw that money down to the wastebasket. i also have tv series to catch up, lotsa them...not to mention, shockingly my fav, nations kinda fav student of af went out in the recent concert, which i din watch and now have hunt down the replay time to watch. movies too, spiderman, 28 days later. and then, clean up and tidy up my stuff from hols. replying tonnes and tonnes of emails, sorry people, you gotta wait a lil longer.....and esp valentina for keeping you waiting for my snail mail. wat else, go out!!! yup, kl people are back, well, only a few, not all. namely, edine, adrian and joanne. amy just went back and so did gilbert plus jack and simon. but definitely we are gonna gather. i dunno, haven contact them yet. and after this batch, chris is coming back at the end of the month, may-june, then aus at end june, lionel, and then july uk.....oh yeh!!!! so many people, one after another. at least i know i got people to meet up too. but wait, after july, if i go sing, its gonna be me and chang going away already. i guess i should enjoy my this free boring moment. forgot to mention, after this trip, seeing how my exg15 classmates are studying, i seriously, should enjoy my time now. uni life, there is no way for any free free time!!!

shall get back here later. gonna hibernate for a moment, on my couch watching series after series, while resting my feet!!! hahah

A to Z - the Malaysian Entertainment Industry

2007-05-02T18:29:00.000+08:00

still on vacation, fun trip so far, gonna blog about it when i get back to kuching. anywya, I just reeditted my old blog from ALL ABOUT ME to A to Z. so check it out. as i have mentioned in my previous post, that old blog of mins is where am gonna write my random thoughts, basically just about anything. and for its first port, its about the malaysian entertainment industry, in my point of view. so check it out if you are free at aamsara.blogspot.com

Time off

2007-04-26T12:03:00.000+08:00

sat for my paper 1 and paper2 on tues and wed, i passed. yeh!!! and now, i gotta pack. so will be having a time off starting from tomorrow. hope its gonna be a fun trip though i still have my interview to think about. but i guess i deserve a vacation first. hear from me soon, in about a week or so. and certainly i will miss my tv. and when i come back, back to class and another mock exam. oh gosh, i should stop thinking too far and just enjoy this moment.

about yesterdays post...well, yea, feeling of regret!!! most of us regretted for the things we have done. but i bet everyone of you has ever tot back and also regret for the things that you din do rite? nothing more i can say....

oh ya, announcement, i decided to use my old blog as a secondary blog, you know where i post other stuff, rojak stuff. so when there's an update on that blog, i will let you know. hint hint, the first one is gonna be my pt of view on the malaysian entertainment industry!! check it out....soon!

special = istimewa??

2007-04-26T12:02:00.001+08:00

as i listen to THE song, i just wonder.....why am i so stupid last time? why am i so blind at that time? why am i like sooooo lurus bendul at that point of time? oh goodness, it just sucks to remember wat i have missed, the opportunity given, the chance right in front of me....thinking back, feeling of regret is the only thing i can feel. geram too. wat to do, no one to blame except for my own self. i deserve it. my own fault, my mistake. things are different just because of the past. nothing i can do, but be more observant in the future, treat the past as a lesson, well, tat is if there is another time again.

NO mood

2007-04-23T13:47:00.000+08:00

i feel so not in the mood to do anything. i guess its the lazy mood. in less than 24 hours, i will be sitting for my paper1 exam and 48 hours, my paper2. and i haven finished my preparation. my room is in a mess. my closet is in a mess. my dressing table is in a mess. and last but not least, my living room is in a mess, messy because of my accounts books. well, i dun actually have a study table, so i basically study in my living room where there is my tv and anyone who knows me well would know i cant study without tv, except for last year in kl, which was an exceptional case. i gotta study, do exercises, clear my room but i just dun feel like doing anything, except watch tv, series, and af. oh goodness, this is soooo not good. and i wanna sleep too!!! cos last nite, i din get much sleep, why, i think its because of the really kau tea i drank, for 3 cups, to detoxify my body, you know too heaty, and my tummy wasnt feeling well since sat nite, after having jap, mite be because of the raw squid i had. watched heroes non-stop, playing spider solitaire, and see now, i cant even complete any sets. it must a bad time for me to do anything.

but, if not now, when??? it will be too late if i dun do some things now. like my exams, my life. we regret for not doing some things in the past, just like me on one person. watever you do now actually determines wat you do in the near future. we always say, we need time, time to finish this, time to imrpove, time to relax and have fun. time to calm down. time to stand up. all we need is time as our life revolves around time.

oh boy, i dun even now wat i am talking. dun bother about my sieness feeling, my mind is not at the rite state. my mind is actually filled with memories of some people, which of course, comes the feeling of regret. certainly my mood now blogging is unlike my previous post. now i am uncertain to do anything. oh, i should stop. gotta give my face a big slap and wake up. as i have said, if not now, when? and thats why in life, when the time comes, its now. and so here comes now.

ignore this post everyone....as you can see, i dun even know wat i am writing about. i just wan my sleep, tv, couch, and lotsa series....heroes, greys, af.....and of course, unwillingly, my studies.

HERE COMES NOW!

2007-04-20T18:00:00.001+08:00

been a while since i blogged. well, was caught up with some stuff. before i start, sorry edine, for this late reply on your comment bout my ptk trip. din realise you put comments. firstly, just had my first mock exam for cost accounting. it was okay. then my lecturer told me that i wont be sitting for my second mock exam earlier since none of my classmate will be sitting. cos previously i tot my classmate would sitting for it so i say i join him. so looks like now my monday is free, no exam. and i will be sitting for it later than the rest since i am not gonna make it on may 3rd. which leaves only two exams next week, the real final exam for paper 1 and paper 2 on wed and thurs.

i guess the past few days was kinda emotional for chang mei and i. feelings:: anxious, worried, freaking out. but rite now, we are feeling much better. all we know is that HERE COMES NOW! (its wat we have been waiting for)

before i get on to that, wed.....last wed, well, just two days, we went to watch movie. yup, another day out., nite out, since i had full day class, not to mention exams in the morning. amy lai is back. bernie wanted to watch sunshine and so we did. dinner at pizza hut, chang, bernie and i tried the new twist and wrap combo, which we concluded, taste rather weird....normal ones are much better. but its gonna be ages till we step back to that shop. then at 9pm, watched sunshine joined by amy and steve. hows the movie?? well, beginning was kinda boring, gets a lil bit too technical when explaining. but when ppl start to die, the flow of the movie starts. the end, predictable. mind you, the guy sitting next to steve, fell asleep!!

today, friday, out again. us trio, wen for lunch at toms and guess what, secret recipe has open today!!!! much to our surprise cos we tot it will be open in may. so the purpose of going out today was supposedly to get some 'sunshine', as we were down, purpose to have fun and cheer both us girls up. but in the end, todays outing was a moment of fun, enjoy and just relax before we face the hard days. toms lunch was fine, me having lemongrass chix, reminded me of asia's one, chang had fish and chips while bernie had i forgot wats it called. after that, walked around town to find our designated stuff in mind but hopeless. then tea, desert at secret recipe. boy, the prices are lower than the ones in kl. cakes, brownies, food and beverage!! and that wraps up today cos for the next few weeks, we will be busy.

so, shortlisted applicants for nus were notified around this time. by saying this, i guess you guys know wat chang and i are busy about. lotsa ups and downs. not to mention, nearly giving up. but in the end, we got called for it. long story and i dun wanna bore you guys here. so i will just skip that part unless you really wanna know then ask me.

in short, for me, now, plans and plans, next week exams, then enjoy a while, and HERE COMES NOW!!! (interview) emotions: happy, excited at the same time, anxious and worried!! whoever knows me know my last emotion well!

HERE COMES NOW, sung by jakob dylan, is the themesong for six degrees series, from producer of lost, currently showing on ntv7. really nice song, love the chorus and the series, love the concept, coming rite up

the SIMPLE or COMPLICATED life

2007-04-12T18:31:00.000+08:00

the past few days have been, not good, i would say....ended since last week, and starting this week was bad astro signal. when that was done, i had a very bad dream of sth very important to me. and now, today, i just found that i have 4 tests coming up in the next two weeks. well, two cbe exams on the 25 and 26th april was my choice. but next wed and following monday, am having two mock exams. well, guess that kinda fills up my april month. not to mention, chang mei and i are praying real hard for a good news-letter in our letter box. and may??? well, its gonna be a hell of a month i predict, either good or bad, that, will be on a later post.

right now, remember i said how bored i was, and how i tot life was so meaningless and me being useless at this period of time?? and i am not the only one??? well, now with stuff to do, am not that bored, altho it has sth to do with studying. point to make, countless ppl, frens who are in uni now, are telling us, RELAX, and ENJOY, yes, we (cm and i) did eventually resolve to that. but we had one conversation lately. true enough, why bother and worry bout the free time we have? we should enjoy our lives now. but we also agreed that try living, staying at home now, for months doing nothing, i mean not studying, with your parents, mite not be the best case scenario. i mean ok, enjoy life, eat sleep tv fun, relaxation, but with parents who keeps on saying why didn you go study elsewhere, why wait, why stay at home, this and that, kinda makes the simple relaxed life kinda stressful and a complicated one. they see you, everyday, not doing anything productive, lazying around, which just ends the day with a nagging or maybe more than that. sometimes, world war three can happened too. they are annoyed seeing us at home and we are annoyed at them for nagging us. but i guess theres no one to blame, they are our parents, who has the rite to nag their children. they are concern about us. we as children on the other hand are just tyring to enjoy the simple life, having popcorn at the couch, basically just enjoying the home sweet home feeling which we may not know when is the next round. so ppl, whoever says enjoy this simple life of ours, take a moment and think of the 'home' scenario. it mite not be a simple life afterall, but ends up complicated when world war three strikes at home

the TRIP

2007-04-08T14:25:00.000+08:00

SERIOUSLY???!!!!! is this some kind of a joke!????!!!! gosh, my astro is really killiing me. i tot i woke up early to catch the second hour of amazing race and i switched on the astro to find 'sorry service currenlty not available'. its not freaking raining, neither is it windy, why is there no signal!!! i am sooo pissed off. fine, i tot giving it till 12pm so i can watch csi cos i can still watch the replay for amazing race tonite. and indeed, i just watched csi and antm. so continuing down my tv list today, was af! the replay since i was watching af every alternate 3 seconds which spoils my mood. and GUESS WHAT!!!! services currently not available??? really....seriously....am i being sabotage???? am i the only one having this problem??? all my shows are being wat interupted...eversince astro upgrades it to measat 3. wats the point for me subsrcibing astro which is much more expenisve compared to other cable tv just to find its service unavailable? and wats the point of having a replay of a show if the replay cant be watched by a customer due to a lousy signal????

ok ok gotta calm down, now for my sis, is this post on the trip!!! and also for my frens who always wanted to know hows it like in ptk, indo. helping you out with pix to picture it since telling you mite be hard to get the idea.

on april 1, sunday, my mum and i went back to pontianak, kalimantan barat, indonesia to attend my cousins engagement party. well, she is gonna get married in september and will only hold her marriage party over at australia, so i called this party as a wedding party too. board the plane at 10.20am and reached ptk at 9.50am, of cos, indo time.

by the time we reached the hotel, it was about 10.30am. guess wat, i got to watch my amazing race there, but half way, cos the party was at 12pm. off we went to gajahmada restaurant, valentio's parents partially ownes the place, and makan time. 8 dishes = sharks fin soup, 4 fried dishes comprises with he keng (prawn), hoi cho (crab), butter prawn and squid, stew sea cucumber wth mushroom chix, steamed fish, ginseng chix, marinated duck, kerabu salad, clam with cabbage. dessert was cold longan! din manage to get the pix though, pai seh la.

after the lunch, pix taking time. after that, went back to our hotel, where after a while, my dad went to visit my uncle at the hopsital. my uncle has been admitted about a week ago, remmeber when i was left alone at home??? cos my dad went back and my mum too. so left my mum and i at the hotel, of course, i enjoyed my axn and nap a lil while.

here are some pix i took during the party. din take much though since i too wanted to be in the pix. so sis gotta wait for cousin dian to send to us next week. be patient.....

(above) on the left is my cousin, dian and her husband-to-be, fran. and on the left is my other cousin, danny and me. (below) a view of the banquet taken from upstairs. and thats my aunt after a makeover, i mean she never puts on make-up, my mum and me again! also cake cutting ceremony plus a pix perfect for the big family!

in the evening, after shower and all, bout 6pm, we all went to visit my uncle since i was back, should pay him a visit rite? lingered around at the hospital, and boy i gotta tell you, things are different there and elsewhere's hospital. about 8pm plus, my aunt came to pick us up at the hospital and had dinner. or should i say supper. we had kway teow, got char kway teow, boon kway teow which means its a lil more wet then char and kway teow soup. all with beef. of course, side dish, plates of satays which were diffferent from asia's or any other satay stalls available here. only thing asia cafe has its uniqueness is its lamb!!! hard to find here. and food wraps up the nite.

on monday, april 2nd, after breakfast, my dad went to the hospital to settle my uncles discharge papers whereas my mum and i went out early to shop for groceries....yup, supermarket was just next to our hotel, so just had to walk. then by 11am plus, my aunt and cousin came over and we went out for lunch and shopping at the ayani hypermart. believe it or not, ptk actually has a few malls and it kinda sucks for kuching not to have one yet. hopefully the spring opens quick. at nite, we went to eat at nelayan restaurant with my aunts family. lets just say that my aunt and us are much closer!!! and this time i did a few pix during dinner.

(above) lunch time, had lontong and pecel with of course, as you can see, kerupuk rakyat. my fav keroppok ever, its kerinting in shape and i just cant find it here in malaysia. the dishes are somewat a lil dif from those here in malaysia in terms of taste and presentation plus style. on the rite, its a pix of my mum, aunt, my cousin and i during dinner at nelayan restaurant.

(below) and here comes some of the food we had, steamed fish in teochew style, fried suid and soft shell crab, tumis kangkung and paku, asam pedas fish and not in the pix, padang crab and botox...hard to find these stuff here.

so on wed, april 3rd, my mum and i came back home first while my dad stays for two more days till my uncle is fully alrite. and so here are some more random pix...some blurry, movin pix were taken when i was in the car on my way to the airport.

in pontianak, there are houses, big houses like these......mostly OKB people, short form of orang kaya baru....and apparently those living in there are MAIDS!!! However......

they gotta tolerate with small roads heading to their houses like this........take a closer look

when building houses, it may look scary, unsafe, like the left pix.....but wat comes out from it, is just like the pix on the rite, Gajahmade restaurant, where the party took place. heres the thing, builing houses in indo, is easy cos you dun need all the approval of qs, op, extension letters and all. you buy a land, build a house, ten year later, add another storey or two.....you just do it with no worries!

talking about creativity, ppl there can produce stuff you never would expected.....these chairs are made from old tyres, trust me its heavy....and it sure will last long

on the roads of pontianak, there are sights of kampungs like these......still using wells for waters and rivers as source of water....

but theres also the modern world. on the left, is the mall i was saying, ayani hypermart, like midvalley that type. and on the rite, its the governors office. note that its actually huge, the area i mean, and the construction and architecture is traditional malay which i find it really interecting as not much of these can be found in malaysia. i would say most buildings of government offices like police, health and museums are structured like that.

typical sights, primary school kids walking on the road.....

people selling newspaper, magazines, even drinks and sorry to say some beggars on the roads too...you know when you stop at the traffic light....

beca....traditional transportcan still be found in pontianak, on the same roads as other motor vehicles and also ppl selling stuff at the road side.

talking about food.....hm.....everytime before we go back kuching, my mum and i would go to the nearby houses located near out hotel to buy traditional kuih-muih...

on the left, its the normal kelupun we can find in malaysia. but the cute thing is, its soooo tiny compared to those sold here. and indeed they also have the one made from potato. the gula melaka inside it is purely gula melaka and not mix with the coconut. when you bite it, the gula melaka will just squirt out filling your mouth with the sweetness

and on the rite, is otak-otak. well, i know malaysia's otak-otak is red in colour because of the spice. but for indonesian otak-otak, theres two types i just found out. one of it is traditional fish made, and boy i tell you , after eating it, your mouth just smells fishy. and on the pix, is otak-otak udang, and this is the first time i have tried it, of course the name says it, theres a whole prawn inserted in the otak-otak, so fresh it smells all prawny. sadly, does allergic cant touch it!

heres two more types of traditional kuih which i dun think can be found here. on the left is putu songkok and on the rite, selabi. Putu Songkok, is normally made of glutinous rice, pulut and covered with coconut plus died fried coconut. when eating, gula melaka is poured over and boy the taste is sweet and salty. concept is like thai;s mango glutinous rice with santan. SELABI, according to my dad is a traditional malay food??? and i dunno wat its made off and how. all i know its lovely. probably made out of tepung beras, poured over with light santan. i can tell eatting two of it can be really filling.

grocery shopping, i always buy tid-bits, i dun think i can get these tid-bits here. silver queen, my dad fav choco ang beng-beng is def MY NO.1 CHOCO. and the kunyit asam and jahe wangi, they are sweets....plus the cigarettes look a like sweet is mint. used to eat it when i was like a lil kid. and on the rite, justea is drink from malaysia. but wat i wanna point out is the choco milk!!! the size of it i mean, its sooo cute, tiny, thats why i put the justea beside it to compare the height. the frisian flag or susu bendera milk choco contains only 110ml if not mistaken and there are sooo many types of milks and tid bits back there. i would say the varities are more in indo than malaysia, as malaysia cares of the health and consumer rites on the food quality. thats why most indo food are delicious because of the taste which may be full of XXTTRAASSS, extra sugar, msg, salt!!

and this is a type of condensed milk, chocolate flavour and sure you cant find it in malaysia. choco flavoured condensed milk.....we buy a lot of this for our avocado juice. not to mention, we also buy back the avocados and make avocado juice ourselves.

that wraps up everything. bear with me for those who thinks the pix are kinda random. signing off - ping -

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2007-04-07T22:38:00.000+08:00

i am soooooo pissed now, yes, NOW......its saturday. i already missed one concert and one whole week of its diari and i tot i could enjoy watching the show this week, but noooooo!!! i cant watch konsert akademi fantasia now IN PEACE....yup, i cant. i dunno whether its only me or wat cos it seems like i have a bad signal. it keep on tersekat-sekat, you know, like signal not good, so all i get to watch is 5 seconds of the show, then, black screen, silent, then back again, for a few seconds, then black again. sooo geram, how to watch like that. spoil my mood only.

and i think after posting this, i am gonna go to my room and watch greys again. well, lets just see if i have the patience to watch af finish because my fav contestant hasnt performed yet!!!

so today, was a busy day. busy day making money!!! yes, money, money. well, i guess i am not so money minded type of person and i dun think i can start a business. no interest yet. back to what i wanna say, today, chang mei and i went to merdeka palace at 8 plus to work. yup, thanks to her, i too got to work. work for mastery programme, sth like mentorship/guidance for businesses. and what we did was help around the seminar. how was the job??? dun wanna talk bout it here!!

i have a mock exam next week and i so am not in the mood to study. oh well, i dun wanna study, but anyone who knows me will sure know that i will not not study for exam one.

and so i guess, after complaining here, the astro signal is back on smoothly. finally after 6 people performing, i get a clear smooth line. i have a feeling my fav contestant is the last, which sucks, cos this means i will be staying up to watch it and no more greys for tonite. lazy to watch the replay tomorrow in full cos i have lotsa replay series to catch up. and apparently, last weeks af concert wasnt that good, the performance, and critics were harsh and i missed it. gonna hunt for last weeks show and tonite, everyones trying their best not to get a hot spicy comments (direct translation, pedas punya komen)

ok le, tomorrow the TRIP will be posted. or else, i expect a bee buzzing at my ear all the way from kl. till then!!

and apparently, to those who watches af like me, heliza and aizat did a good job so far, singing torn and a spanish song. brilliant for this week for them. still waiting for ebi, who got called back in after appearing first for a redo, makeover. and dafi, after last week hot comments i heard. and to bad candys voice was rather rough, tough, hard, should soften a lil bit for her song. oh ya, bsb song, as long as you love me was ok sung by farha. at least linda jasmine did a good ob in teaching syawal, dafi and aizat to dance and him too. still waiting for ebi and dafi.

Back

2007-04-06T21:39:00.000+08:00

i know i am suppose to blog as soon as i came back from pontianak, indo with few pictures, but sorry sorry, delay a lil bit cos i was caught up with tiredness. am probably guessing, my sis will kill me soon, cos i haven posted the pix yet. was back since tues morning, and lets just say i was just too tired and too lazy to do anything. yup, feeling lazy to do anything, just felt like sleeping.

wed morning i had class and noon again, nap. then watch tv and still feeling lazy. besides, got homework to do. not to mention, wasnt feeling really well, sunburnt, dun ask me how i got it and eye infection. but one exciting thing on wed nite, was SEASON 3 greys! ntv7 is showing it. i just cant believe they are continuing to show greys latest season. altho i have the series already but, am just excited bout it. yup, yup, its still one of my fav series, you know??? ok, then thurs, morning i had class. and when got back, my dad was back too, from ptk, indo. he went for two weeks already to take care of my uncle who was admitted into the hospital, but he is alrite now, discharged. and at noon, zzzzzzz.

friday, which is today, good friday, woke up, and i just like watching greys again!!! and so i did. and by noon, lunch with chang mei and bernie at jade pot. ivan joined us later and we went to bings. of cos, all we did was makan and chat since it has been ages since we met up with ivan. we decided that we have lotsa movies to watch - the reaping, sunshine, spiderman, pirates and harry potter. guess we will be going out and spending malaysian ringgit really often. so guys, chris, lionel, just hang in there! when you come back, it will be your turns. came back home, continue with greys. dinner, watch my series and org some pix, which lends me here now posting.

i just tot of sth, i am sooooo not up-to-date with so many stuff....namely, my studies - having exams soon and am not studying, my tv series - especially with akademi fantasia, i dun even know what songs they are singing this week, my blog - upcoming posts which i have listed but haven posted and my frens - mainly those that i have lose contact with for quite a while. and also my mails - wah, suddenly my inbox is exploding. oh my, i gotta keep all that to a minute for myself. i tot i should be enjoying my life now, but i guess my very free life now does accomodate me with some stuff to do. and chang mei, the one other person who is very free, she has also some work to do, teaching. ivan, on the other hand, well, living each day to his fullest!!! the rest here, STUDYING......

before i forget, i would like to inform to those who leave comments at my blog, thank you thank you, really appreciate it, and wanna let you guys know that if you ever leave comments, do check it back your comments, cos i will sure reply them. jangan kata you leave comments and i never reply!!!

at the moment, am not planning to do anyone of those 'not up-to-date' things, but i wanna take a shower. to cool myself down and wake myself up. yup, its not even 10pm and am feeling sleepy. guess a bucket of cold water will give me a couple of hours more before i zzz again.

tomorrow, have plans with chang mei.....that will be tomorrow. and sis, just wait for another day, promise by sunday, will blog on my trip!!! and those who always wanted to get a picture of ptk, yup, story coming rite up!!! meanwhile, everyone, just hang in there!!!! JUST BREATHE

DiNNer

2007-03-31T13:20:00.000+08:00

last nite, bernie, calvin, chang mei and i went out to have dinner. so bernie suggested wishing well, but as chang mei told us wat type of food they served, we ditched the place and just went across to see the philipino food.....too many words displayed and so we left the place and decided to settle for mr ho. we all hop into calvins car, realising later that it wasnt open. wat a luck we all had last nite. lazy to think where to next, we finally went to the nearby shop where bernie too wanted to check the new place out....JAVA Juice.....was it??? ohh goodness, i cant remember the name of the place.

but i am sure it sounds sth like that. they serve western. i had backed cheese rice, chang mei java speg, bernie chix sandwich plus chilli hot dog shared with calvin who had fish and chips. all had fruit juice and we said the juice was def worth it 3.80 freshly natural fruit juice. and guess who we met there....dexter bong and terry hughes!! been a while since we meet. after the dinner and chat, tradition for bernie to go elsewhere for dessert....where??? firstly, we went back to padungan so chang mei and i used changs car and finally decided to go scoops.

am sure you all cant believe it, but both me and chang have never been to SCOOPS...yup, pathetic isnt it? living in kuching for so long but never been there. haha. ordered two triple scoops, one was green tea, raspberry yoghurt and oreo combination and the other, crazy boys ordered, mocha, roche and cappucino which we could not finished it since it was so coffeish....

and the funny thing about last nite, is how we decided to leave scoops. it was about 11pm when we left the place. could have stayed a lil longer but heres the interesting part....both of our cars were parked at the inappropriate place, ahem, you know, the all famous yellow line. then dunno who say, should be no police rite??? then i saw outside like a police;s car. and man, we flew away from that place. turns out to be the custom people. lotsa them....probably having some operation on drugs and alcohol at nearby pubs and cafes. thats it for the nite. apparently, bernie just felt like going out last nite. too bad ivan din manage to make it. but like we all always say, there's always a next time

i know i was to post some other stuff up, but nows not the time. not to mention, am leaving tomorrow, and i haven packed, note that i can hear my mum screaming already since my flight is early tomorrow morning. so this is it for now. am sure gonna miss my tv.....yes, crappy astro decided to change af concert to sunday.....i cant watch. and also tomorrow nite, at star world, theres the interview of barbara walters with the 10 most fascinating people of 2006 and one of them is patrick dempsey which i def wanna watch. gonna hunt for the replay dates and times now. see you soon on tues/wed!! meanwhile, enjoy the weekends ppl!!

Yesterday....Today

2007-03-29T18:31:00.000+08:00

oh goodness, now i feel so geram cos i actually wrote my post already and i accidentally pressed shift which deleted everything. oh well..

talk about YESTERDAY.......all my troubles seem so far away....

i cant.....i cant remember the last time we kissed...NOT, thats greys anatomy version when meredith told derek after the bomb incident!!!

my version, i cant remember the last time i was so excited.....yesterday, i just felt so excited, perhaps its the plan of the day=meeting up with old fren, watch movie and chat plus not going out for so long....i mean hanging out!!!

yup, thats wat happened yesterday. i could not resist myself for waiting for someone to watch with me mr bean. and so i asked chang mei out. at 12pm, we went out bought tix, had lunch nearby, 2pm watch mr bean and 3.30pm we went bings and chat. i tell you, 3 months not meeting up, we sure have lotsa things to talk bout. we chat in total for 4 hours.

we talked bout everything, the past, the present and the future. and i guess i know now i am not alone, the one thinking life is meaningless now for me and me being so useless, so free, doing nothing. cos she tot of the same thing too. that was us when we chat during lunch. but after the movies at bings, we concluded that we should actually appreciate this moment of ours cos am sure its gonna be hard to ever get a chance to relax and being lazy around home without having to worry bout studies and life. it can be boring, really boring, go out also so sien, not much place to hang out or do, only stay at home, eating, sleeping, watching tv and just have lotsa free time; but we say again, we gotta really enjoy this moment.

mr bean.....well, it was ok thats my comment. considering its been 10 years since we hear anything from him, i suggest everyone to watch. too bad beans signature teddy bear din appear in the movie. it was one and half hours long, filled with none other than comedy. they cant make it any longer or it will be boring. one part that i really think it was cool was towards the end, during the cannes film festival, bean took over the video and it actually matches wat carson clays words. overall, its just another comedy film by bean!!!

oh ya almost forgot, yesterday was fun and i actually almost cancelled the plans cos i woke up ay 8am with a bad bad terrible stomachache. until after that , my whole lower part of the body felt soooo sore and it hurts soo badly, feels like chopping it off!!! but thanks goodness after a short nap, i was fine and the plan was on.

that was yesterday......and TODAY

i had morning class of paper 4 cost accounting. its with the jan intake students. actually, me and steve wont be meeting up in april considering he will be doing paper 2 and be finishing paper 4. may we will meet up again. so today, the class was different....in the sense, it was SOOOO NOISY. probably they were too excited as they just had their paper 1 cbe exam. the class was extremely noisy and my fren, liza and i got pretty annoyed. i salute my lecturer for being so patient. seriously, if i have children behaving like this at home, so loud, act like hooligan especially girls, oh goodness, malu to jumpa orang. it was really noisy. never have i ever been in this type of class. really.....like got bee buzzing LOUDLY at ear.

preety annoyed...thats it. but am fine now. its just another class. and considering we will only meet very few times, of course i am gonna forget bout it in an hour when i watch my movies.
and its hot!!! weather is crazy....effects of glbal warming.....drastic weather...here sooo hot though its raining, elsewhere, earthquake, extreme winter season.....PRESERVE the ENVIRONMENT people!!!

Ignorance???

2007-03-29T08:30:00.000+08:00

IGNORANCE.....i just dunno how some people can just treat like nothing has happened??? i mean do they even know they did sth wrong or maybe just started a chaos!!! oh goodness....so tebal muka.....dah la kena tolong, tak contact pun selepas kejadian.

sorry for my neg. emotions and complains....but i just wonder, why some ppl can just be like that. ignorant, tebal muka. not knowing their real situation or, wait, they do know, but yet still causing more problems and expect help from you. help has been given and i remind myself no more helping next time.....well, not!! easier said than done. we always say we are not gonna help anymore for their own good but seems like, we just cant help ourselves from helping others... and now, we are the ones suffering.

so here's the thought of the day....i just dunno how ppl can be so IGNORANT...like MEMANG patut we kena tolong them. besides, also, help after help after help, dun they ever know that we too at times need help from others, likeTIDAK TAHU DIRI! this is wat i felt today till it has gone over the top of my other intended posts......gtg dinner!! and i wanna watch mr bean!!!

ALONE facing CHANGES

2007-03-26T11:47:00.002+08:00

ALONE, rite now, me, at home, since fri. my parents went back to indo for a couple of days....almost a week actually, leaving me here to jaga the house and of course, my dad's fish. besides, i still have classes going on so yea, explains why my mum insisted on me staying back.

so how do i get to class.....thanks to STEVE...yes, yes, yes, thanks to him for giving me a ride to class. i guess i have mentioned it yet, steve tang wai, felllow ex-classmate in lodge and now my calssmate in accounts class. boy, was i shocked to see him coming in during the first class in beginning the of may. and tomorrow, will be out class together...well, for the time being. in may we will be meeting up again. cant believe it, 9 years of eing classmates from pri 1 to form 3 and schoolmates two years later, friends for one year and classmates AGAIN!! wat a coincidence!!! well, very glad to have him as a classmate of course.

CHANGES, boy was i shocked to hear wats going on with my frens, sorry people for not being there for you when you were all experiencing changes in your life. fellow ex-g15 in imu, huey ying and xin yi, hang in there ok. my sweet sue ann, move on and focus ok??? i guess, time changes ppl. like EVOLUTION is sth that we cannot escape. it changes others, and us. and we learn from it to live our tomorrow better. now i am certain that i din make the wrong choice of words for this blog add. and i hope, all my upcoming posts can not only cheer ppl up but also provide some stuff to think in life.

i tot myself a couple of days/weeks ago that my life now, at this point of time is rather meaningless. why? ppl are already in uni, well, my fellow batch of frens i mean, everyone starting to persue their dreams and me, still waiting for an answer. for those who dun know, am still in kuching, waiting for my sing offer, and dear god, i just jope i get accepted. so yea, at one point of time, i tot my lfie has no aim cos i have so much free time though i am studying accounts but still, lotsa free time. many would dream to be in my position, eat sleep relaxwatch tv, but trust me, not for me. rather be doing sth useful. so now, i have dismissed my thinking of meaningless life and CHANGING it by finding sth useful to do to fill my time. eventually, the answer i am waiting for will come. and here's where i will spend my time, posting on stuff i think about.

its noon, got afternoon class later....and so, i gotta prepare lunch for myself. so it ends here for now. to conclude, ALONE facing CHANCES, tats wat most ppl are facing. we experience changes by ourselves, making discoveries every minute we live our lives. but remember the changes that are happening in life, has its purpose.....it sure will bring you good later in life as the changes may not be a bad thing. you may think you were alone when facing all the differences and discoveries but keep in mind that there are others who are also facing their own changes and discoveries.

2day!!

2007-03-18T11:24:00.000+08:00

its been almost 3 months since i blogged. and here i am now in my living room, posting my first post on my new blog to mark a new beginning.

2007 evolution = everyday something is evolving, or should i say, all things are evolving everyday no matter we realise it or not, no matter we want it or not; animals, plants, dnas and including us, evolving = changing; physically, mentally, emotionally, for the better or for the worse, up to you to decide. we cant stop evolution from happening so life is actually about evolution and its just that way. but one thing that is certain, we have to adapt ourselves with the evolution process that is happening around us, like i said, we cant stop evolution but we can cope with it so JUST BREATHE, thats all

2006 has been....well, lotsa ups and downs, lets just not mentioned it anymore. i dun actually quite know what to write now cos i now i shouldnt be on the net since i have a mock exam coming up. but since its been a while since i ever blog, i just thought of starting a new fresh blog today considering i am in the mood.

i will just keep this first post short and hopefully after my exams, when i am home alone, nothing to do, i will have the time to add some more. i guess this nearly 3 months break, i have quite a no. of things to say, where and wat have i been up too for the past almost 3 months. holidays.....troubles.....studies.....friends.....entertainment, yes, for those who knows me well, i sure have lots to say about the last one. so those who dun like the entertainment, change your url now, cos i dun wan you to get bored of My entertainment, dun say i never mentioned it. =>

Just Breathe...

guess it's about time

is it done?

happy & satisfied VS worried

end? beginning?

wats with me?

happy deepavali!!

half sem gone

pix from 'home'

Tissues + RAG DAY/SUNTEC 11 aug

more pix

Matrichie Resevoir Park & Steamboat National Day 9th August

end of week 3

when we were still free not long ago

Nursing Orientation Camp at Aloha Loyang Aug 1-3

the end and the beginning

still caught up

SG now part 2

SG now

one long nite/day i hope...

out again....will it be the last???

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a week left and counting...

wat i had = wat i hope/am

A to Z - Loving You Just Seems So Hard

CLock is ticking

A to Z - Frens? Companion?

7/7/07

A to Z - Casu Consulto

out = movie + food + frens + interview

To All

of love bites and lack of sleep

i am not ready to move on

Happy BIrthdays!!

Pirates

i should be studying but

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wats wrong with me???

'sien'

the Vacation

OMG

Damai - Iglool

Spiderman 3

MAY/MEI *7th May*

Back

A to Z - the Malaysian Entertainment Industry

Time off

special = istimewa??

NO mood

HERE COMES NOW!

the SIMPLE or COMPLICATED life

the TRIP

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DiNNer

Yesterday....Today

Ignorance???

ALONE facing CHANGES

2day!!

MAY/MEI 7th May