i am not ready to move on

i am feeling tired. there is so many things in my mind now!

i am full after a day of food food and food.

i need a moment of my own, i know i need it but am scared to have it cos by the time i have it, things are gonna change.

my feelings, emotions are so jumbled up now ...... friendship....love....separation

i have to accept, i have to, its sth i know i should be able to handle this acceptance ages ago...
but apparently, am not....

i never realised the real truth of an incident till the time has come or is around the corner

i am not ready to move on...

God, please give me the strength to accept and move on with everything that is in mind...

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so wat food did i have today??

dinner, my parents and i went to restoran pondok laguna, crown tower. new place actually just opened in may. and kinda obvious the name shows its indonesian food...and i was soo excited when i found out and finally today i get to try it out.

overall, it was just ok. gonna give it another chance though cos they are still soo brand new, so need a lil bit of adjustment on the food taste esppecially the sambal belacan. come on, thats sooo important in indo food rite??? without that, no use having great dishes like lalap, sup buntut, gurame goreng and all those


here on the left, is pepes ayam....i really dunno how to translate it but oh well, am actually posting these up for the sake of my sis. so you should know wat it means. and on the rite, ikan bakar, which is superb for the nite!!! its fantastic. they certainly did well for this dish. the sauce was good...generous in their kicap manis topping...



and tauhu kipas, well, so so, i think mum does it better. and the sambal as you can see, was disappointing, cos apparently tonite, its a local who did it, no wonder not spicy and 'pang'/harum at all!! i forgotten to take the pix for sup buntut and lalap. well, all dish has its bad point except for my avocado juice and certainly the fish!!

drinks, i have avocado juice, which is sooo yummy, kinda paid off coming here and have this since my two aunts could bring any from ptk since its not the season. and dad had es teler which was so so and mum kelapa muda which is a no no.

overall, tauhu kipas, too hard compared to mums, perhaps tooo crunchy i guess. not so good rite.
then pepes ayam, so so. sup buntut, toooo bad it wasnt hot enough. i mean serving it in a wide opened bowl will def def cools down the soup damn fast. lalap, the veg, they made a mistake by preparing it and then keeping it in the freezer which makes the veg not so crunchy feeling. lastly, the fish was amazing!!!

and also my avocado juice, ta pau another one home...and yet another rm 5.
price wise, drinks are the killer of course if compared to the food. but its standard price i guess.

before dinner, i was having more food. bernie, chang mei, chris and i had lunch at toms. having beef pie this it was just nice for me, but after having some of berns fries, oops, i was full. we tot toms had wi fi but nooo. forgotten to mention, today was a day of discussion and plans. and indeed all went well....except for the main obj of obtaining series from chris. haha. since toms had no wifi and then bings was full, we went to scoops. but there was a big problem there. power points...and all our battery were nearly flat. having horlicks, pink guava and pistachio as our dessert, when i got home i felt sooo full and less than an hour, makan again. back to the point, off we went to chris's house as theres no other place like home which hsa everything. sth wrong with the hard disc, so the series stays in there, or for bernie, who cant get his lost series, lost is lost in the hard disc....at least i got heroes and oth.

its weird rite how our minds can handle the highs and lows of our life at the same time??