Saturday, June 30, 2007

A to Z - Casu Consulto

ACCIDENTALLY on PURPOSE

out = movie + food + frens + interview

wednesday, was my last class of cat accounts....well, i still have a mock exam but i guess i am just too lazy to sit for it, since i wont be sitting for my finals anyway. after my noon class, chang mei picked me up and we went to parkson. at 7pm, we watched fantastic four, we, meaning chang mei, kevin, elsie, bernie, leonard and i. as usual bernie and the rest were late. but this time, wasnt as late as Pirates. movie was just ok too me.

after the movie, gabriel and albert joined us after watching a movie at star. oh forgotten to mention, chang and i bumped into poh liung and his girlfriend before the movie. been ages since we have met him.

supper, we went over to jalan song. lionel joined us. later, the rest went over to bernies house to play excluding me. lionel sent me back cos i was kinda tired. had series to watch and also, din wanted to bother chang mei having to send me back home again late nite.

thursday, lunch together at green hill corner. this time with chang mei and lionel, where we met andrew, lil bro, who just got back. leonard and albert joined us later but sadly, the beef noodle stall were closing. so we moved on to secret recipe to have cakes while the other two had their lunch. and boy, kuching is such a small city....met sharifah and lilian. and surprisingly, ann nyee was sitting at the back of me. it was really lucky i would say to be able to meet my old international fren buddy again. i tot misisng the chance in kl, i wouldnt be able to meet up again before i leave.

sending chang mei back home, i brought lionel to iglool. and chatted till it was nearly 4. and since he had to pick up his lil sis in lodge, we moved to kaya toast tabuan jaya. kaya toast wasnt our dish but rather teh c and lionel had soft boiled eggs. all in all, chatted for a whole two hours with my big bro.

since lionel was too deprived from going out eversince he got back, he wanted to go out again at nite. setting chilax as the place, 8.30pm. chang mei picked me up and when oevr to chilax. too bad lil bro couldnt make it. we were there early, where the back of the shop was opened but the front was closed. bernie did say chilax is one crazy shop where they open and close anytime they want. albert and leonard joined us later. all four of us are like crazy ppl waitin in the car while waiting for the shop to open and lionel the gang to come. but minutes later, the back of the shop was closed. so it was obvious that they were not open for the nite.

i guess lionel had his wish granted on wanting to go bings as we make our way there. ordering our drinks and sitting for about 30 minutes, we were approached by 2 americans. students who wanted to conduct an interview with malaysian youth culture. so we chatted for i guess around 2 hours. before 10, albert and leonard left to watch transformers. so five of us were talking happily, expressing our views to them. it was a weird meeting i would say, as if it was only us frens, we wouldnt be talking bout polictics, economics, culture and everything. but last nite, it was cool to express our views.

after that, we chatted, or basically we were all kinda drained out, with 'heaty' bings and bings 'sweety' drinks. as they close their doors, we left and met rusydie on our way to the car. its fun to go out and bumping into your old schoolmates after being separated for a long time. and that wraps up my last two days. i was just full....of the food and drinks thats in my stomach. other food that i tot i wouldnt have at this point of time was laici, soursop and plum. i guess those fruits are beyond my expectations as desserts.

one more day left and july comes...counting the days will be the last thing i would want to do but unfortunately, i think my brain is just crazy bout time.

Saturday, June 23, 2007

To All

Been a while since i 'write', and as i was reading thru my quote book, my hands just wrote this.

(HISTORY)
You made me feel strong, when i was weak.
You made me feel wanted, when i was lonely.
You made me feel safe, when i felt insecure.
But most important of all,
You made me feel special and loved,
when i tot i was not worth living
.


(PRESENT - Question)
How could i not realised then,
wat you have done to me;
wat you have said to me;
how i felt about you.


(Truth)
If only you knew.
If only my heart could speak.
If only i had the courage,
to let you know that,
you're the one i seek;

(Endless Hope)
And that things will be different,
before, now and after.


(Confession)
Its not your fault, i must say.
You gave me the hints, made the first move.
But it was I, who was blinded then;
blinded over things i tot was worth more to deal with,
till i overlooked at you,
making you an outcast in life.


(Regret)
Reading thru my book of life,
many have i done wrong in your chapter.
I was not observant, with your actions.
I was not connecting, with your words.
And worse of all,
I was not thinking between your lines.
I have failed to complete the pieces of your puzzle;


(Realisation)
until now, when i saw the whole picture,
the unforgettable stories and memories,
that was marked, engraved
in your chapter of my book.
It's too late now,
as we are both in 2 different world,
chasing our dreams,
changing as time goes by.
There's no one to blame,
except for me, myself and i.


(NOW & 4EVER)
I caused you to end
my chapter in your book of life.
It's a point of no return.
Praying for the best for you
is the only thing i can do now.
I just wonder how its gonna be like
when you knew all this
and that I miss you
every minute, every second,
my fren.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

of love bites and lack of sleep

thats wat i got after the damai trip....lotsa mosquitoe bites and sleep deprived.
but of course, thats not just it....the fun, relaxation that we had during the one nite stay was worth it. this time, the trip was a lil dif.

we din take any ppl shots except one but many scenary shots.
we din bring much junk food up, so we bought up there, but end up not eating much, so we brought home with more junk food instead.
it was soooo NOT hot, unlike the last time we went, din get tanned. in fact, we felt rather cold due to the rain and wind.
plus, 5 of us, and 7 dishes for dinner....all clean!


fri morning, chang mei, chris, sandra, bernie and i met at mcd third mile. only cm, bern and i had breakfast. heading off after that, we had some moments of laughter in bernies car. one was of cos, me, who needed the toilet kinda urgently. another was the jokes that we all made and the bumpy rides to damai was very fun for us three sitting at the back.

after checking in to our superior room by the poolside, we relaxed in the room. the weather was sooo perfect, not sunny but cloudy and windy. then, we played the pathetic mini golf where, half way thru, it started to rain.
(A)the pathetic mini golf, where the platform itself isnt flat
(B)the rainy view of damai and the kids village view from our room

back to the room we went and played uno and cluedo. after a few rounds, when the rain starts to stop, we went out to the kids village. went up to the tree house, played the rope thing, which we all are like so sakai/suku/gundu/jakun never play before, but the fact was we did play last time in lodge playground. then just as we wanted to climb the monkey bar, the rain starts to fall again......back to the room we went, waited for the rain to stop.


our flip-flops, shot inside the tree house and the 4 suku ppl, who never play the rope thing
the beach called. it was about 4 or 5 at that time with a lil drizzle. and as usual, the four of them were out at the sea, playing with the waves while me walking around the beach, yet another perfect calm and peaceful moment. i joined them later as they were about to leave. down the swimming pool they went until the guard shooed us of the pool for not wearing swimming attire. since we all had to take turns to use the washroom, bernie and sandra went first. while chang mei, chris and i enjoyed ourselves again at the kids village, just right behind our room. managed to climb up the moneky bar and boy, climbing and sitting on top of the monkey bar, gazing at the blue sky was yet another wonderful moment.. and the one of the two reason i came to damai was to see the sunset. of course, there was no sunset to be seen as it was cloudy. but eventhough there was no sun to see at the horizon, theres still part of the bright orange sun thats still worth watching. i dun wanna miss another chance of enjoying the sunset moment AGAIN, after '05 st john camp permai trip



starving our way thru to buntal for dinner, it sure was quite a long journey. went to makan seafood at lim hock ann restaurant, where most of us always went. 5 ppl, 7 dishes and we finished it all. had fried rice, small kailan, butter prawn, fried calamari, thai style chix, o chien and black pepper crab. the crab was 1.1kg and only chris, cm and i ate it. it was definitely filling, and the food were delicious too. food pix coming soon, wait till sandra sends it to me


back at the hotel, we lingered around on the bed before heading to the bar. there, we played bluff and it was my first time i think. bern and chris drank till their faces were soooo hot, enough to cool my cold hands. i din drink cos i felt bloated and i regretted later for not joining them. there were soooo many stars in the sky when we left for dinner, but by then, they all disapperared. sitting at the beachside, just listening to the sound of the waves was just very calming, i just loved it. as mosquitoes were shooing us away plus the cold brezze played more cluedo instead of zzzz. when it was time to sleep, it was nearly 4am, a time where some of us tot of waking up to have a stroll on the beach.

anyone who knows me know i am a light sleeper. so at 4am i think, sandra went out first. my alarm was set at 5am, and just as i was having a good sleep, my alarm rang. 5am, it was still pitch black so i tot of going at 6am. but chris alram was snoozing every 10 mins, oh wait, no, correction, 9 mins he claimed, so in the end, din get much decent sleep. when i went to the beach, meeting up with sandra, it was just perfect. the sky was soooo clear. yet part of them were filled with clouds. all kinds of blue were protrayed at the sky. it was cool and windy. just sooo refreshing. the power of nature, was just amazing. sandra was filiming and was just walking....then chris came. as it was about 7, sandra went back, claimed shes a vampire, allergic to the sun. funny her. and as for bernie and chang mei, well, they are both busy counting sheeps, sleeping in their dreams.

as the sun was almost up, where shadows of elongated us shown on the sand, we went back to our pitch black room. trying to get some sleep, it was almost impossible as the corridors of the rooms, were kinda noisy, the cleaners. dozed off a lil while me, until 1030am, where everyone is almost up. remembered bernie suddenly asking wat times the breakfast. missed it of course. all of us, ALL, were still lazy to get up. you know, the kind of feeling where we are in bed, not wanting to rise but just lay on the bed and relax.



as we checked out before 12pm, we head back to town. choosing a place to makan, guess where did we had lunch,....JADE POT....better than nothing. it was along the way. i was exhausted, not sleeping the whole nite, not to mention, previous nites too cos of the dumb dumb post office late in sending my letter. tot of sleepin on the ride home, somemore bernie had two cushions, but of cos, cant, very bumpy but indeed fun ride!! like wat chris said to me, no way you can sleep in the car.

lunch at jade pot, tats when my love bites showed its true colour. went to church in the evening, and there i stumbled again, bruising my right leg. i guess i had the aftereffect of sleep deprived, as claimed by chang mei and chris. cos at nite, around 10pm, meet up again with bernie, chris and chang mei plus edine and dn, i stumbled yet another time at bings. as bings was full, we went to living room, a place which has cushions and pillows, and it sure does make me wanna sleep. by the time i got back home that nite, i din leep striaght away, but watch a movie before it was sweet dreams at 2.30am


thinking i could wake up late on sunday morning, it was certainly in my dreams, as i had to follow my parents to visit a fren of ours. as it was fathers day and my dad, who was feeling rather syok sendiri, wanted to have dinner. i was like wat??? cos it was never, and i say never, for us to go out makan on the special day itself. which was why, last week, i celebrated fathers day dinner already. but oh well, it was his nite, so you guessed it, my noon nap was gone.

theres always a monday morning that i can get up late but i guess that was reserved for my medical chech up which took hours at kpj. thank goodness, chang mei was there too. and at noon, i had class. tot of skipping it since, i memang am not gonna finish the course and ppl was like, NOOO, sherly you cannot and dun skip class. now, you see the other side of me. and finally, last nite, baru i had a good decent sleep till this morning. had to send my letter back to nus.

thinking i already had my share of piggy piggy????... of course not, still wan my sleep and my legs are still itching their ways cos of the love bites i got. i mean i cant blame anyone for it....spending almost half the time at the beach, love bites is the present i had from damai. i probably cant wear any shorts or skirts for a week or two. lets just hope there arent gonna be any scars cos i am sure gonna cry for that.

meanwhile, still have loads to settle...forms, applications and all before everyone starts coming back next week

Saturday, June 9, 2007

i am not ready to move on

i am feeling tired. there is so many things in my mind now!

i am full after a day of food food and food.

i need a moment of my own, i know i need it but am scared to have it cos by the time i have it, things are gonna change.

my feelings, emotions are so jumbled up now ...... friendship....love....separation

i have to accept, i have to, its sth i know i should be able to handle this acceptance ages ago...
but apparently, am not....

i never realised the real truth of an incident till the time has come or is around the corner

i am not ready to move on...

God, please give me the strength to accept and move on with everything that is in mind...

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so wat food did i have today??

dinner, my parents and i went to restoran pondok laguna, crown tower. new place actually just opened in may. and kinda obvious the name shows its indonesian food...and i was soo excited when i found out and finally today i get to try it out.

overall, it was just ok. gonna give it another chance though cos they are still soo brand new, so need a lil bit of adjustment on the food taste esppecially the sambal belacan. come on, thats sooo important in indo food rite??? without that, no use having great dishes like lalap, sup buntut, gurame goreng and all those


here on the left, is pepes ayam....i really dunno how to translate it but oh well, am actually posting these up for the sake of my sis. so you should know wat it means. and on the rite, ikan bakar, which is superb for the nite!!! its fantastic. they certainly did well for this dish. the sauce was good...generous in their kicap manis topping...



and tauhu kipas, well, so so, i think mum does it better. and the sambal as you can see, was disappointing, cos apparently tonite, its a local who did it, no wonder not spicy and 'pang'/harum at all!! i forgotten to take the pix for sup buntut and lalap. well, all dish has its bad point except for my avocado juice and certainly the fish!!

drinks, i have avocado juice, which is sooo yummy, kinda paid off coming here and have this since my two aunts could bring any from ptk since its not the season. and dad had es teler which was so so and mum kelapa muda which is a no no.

overall, tauhu kipas, too hard compared to mums, perhaps tooo crunchy i guess. not so good rite.
then pepes ayam, so so. sup buntut, toooo bad it wasnt hot enough. i mean serving it in a wide opened bowl will def def cools down the soup damn fast. lalap, the veg, they made a mistake by preparing it and then keeping it in the freezer which makes the veg not so crunchy feeling. lastly, the fish was amazing!!!

and also my avocado juice, ta pau another one home...and yet another rm 5.
price wise, drinks are the killer of course if compared to the food. but its standard price i guess.

before dinner, i was having more food. bernie, chang mei, chris and i had lunch at toms. having beef pie this it was just nice for me, but after having some of berns fries, oops, i was full. we tot toms had wi fi but nooo. forgotten to mention, today was a day of discussion and plans. and indeed all went well....except for the main obj of obtaining series from chris. haha. since toms had no wifi and then bings was full, we went to scoops. but there was a big problem there. power points...and all our battery were nearly flat. having horlicks, pink guava and pistachio as our dessert, when i got home i felt sooo full and less than an hour, makan again. back to the point, off we went to chris's house as theres no other place like home which hsa everything. sth wrong with the hard disc, so the series stays in there, or for bernie, who cant get his lost series, lost is lost in the hard disc....at least i got heroes and oth.

its weird rite how our minds can handle the highs and lows of our life at the same time??

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Happy BIrthdays!!

gawai holidays are over.... i was bored to death at home the ast few days despite my many series and assignments....i just din feel like doing anyone of those. and thank goodness the hols are over, cos chang mei and i are waiting for sth from the postman, our letter of offers. we both got an offer from nus already and before accepting it, we decided to see wat are the terms and conditions. but its been so long they sent the mail and yet we haven received it.
i concluded that icannot have any free time cos my free time will end up to be a boring one. i just must find sth to do...its exactly like last year, 2nd sem of sam, first time i had free time in subang, i was so bored cos i had nothing to do. yesterday, i finally decided to work on my stamp albums...yes yes, for ppl who dunno, and i think most of you dun, i collect stamps, childhood hobby actually.

talked to chang mei over the phone for quite a long time yesterday, we planned on our later days of the week plan....makan and shopping, cross checking when bernie is free. then she called back and said, sherly bernie is hungry, go for lunch at toms. i was gonna have my lunch alresady with my parents but oh well, at least now i can get out of the house...i was dead bored. i just dunno why.

so off at 2pm, we arrived at toms first, but it was closed. all because of the gawai hols. then moved to secret recipe where bern and chris came along. boy, the service really sucks....it was full house again. having cakes and brownies, we moved to crown tower, to have dim sum at causeway bay restaurant. had har kau, yam puff, lo mai kai and char siew pau. by then it was about 4/5pm, and chris was saying in about an hour plus, its dinner. wat he said was correct, chris, chang and i all have early dinner but not for bernie. but wat ever it was, it sure was nice to spend time with your frens and makan and talk.

by the time it was dinner, i was still full. funny thing was, we all kept makan and makan and makan, but bernie and i hardly gain weight. and talking bout kuching, its food thats the main topic.

tomorrow, i have afternoon class. i just wish i have classes everyday, i know crazy me rite??. the three of them wished for the opposite of mine. hehe

before i forget, lionel, my big brother, happy belated birthday and to joanne, HAPPY 19th BIRThdAY!!

Friday, June 1, 2007

Pirates

watched pirates at riverside yesterday with bernie and chang mei 6pm. why riverside? well, we all kinda agreed that star is kinda scary now, lousy compared to riverside. furthermore, star would probably be sardine packed but riverside not so. plus we dun have to make so mnay rounds up the carpark. buying tix about 5.30pm and looking at the seats available, its sure was gonna be a quiet theatre. however, the price was not wat as expected rm 8 but rm 10. catching some light snacks at the ground floor, we came back up at 6pm. and it really is typical right for asians/malaysians to be late rite, so we never expected the show to start on time but with few trailers at 6pm. so we went to the toilet, not wanting to miss any part of the movie. then we came out, the hall door was not open, there was no attendant. so we went into hall1 and checked, maybe it wasnt opened yet, but the show has already started...but cannot be we tot. it was pitch black and we couldnt even see our feet. out we went to check with the counter and they said the show had started, crap...we were late for 10 mins. by the time we sat, they were already at singapore. and wats worse, no tickect attendant accompanied us to our seats. bernie tot we were in the wrong hall and had to ask the guy sitting in front for confirmation. lucky he wasnt mad or anything. wats worse was, the speaker sucks....wait, not the speakers i would say but the film roll, cos sometimes it was stereo, then mono then at one point i think for a couple of mins there was no sound at all. and wats funny, no one actually went out to tell the ppl. guess we were all patient last nite.

so the tix was rm 10, we missed the beginning of the show, watching with mono/stereo speakers or even mute, no one to usher us on our seats.....anymore riverside next time??? well, we all decided to give it another chance since it was not that bad the last time any of us came. i went to watch 300 at riverside and everything was perfect. we'll see how it goes. the movie, to me, i like this better than the second one, in terms of the story line. but of course the previous one had more humour. comparing to spidey 3, i prefer this one.

finishing before 9pm, we went to walk around parkson, since it was on sale. and then fetched chris....who just got back earlier yesterday to go makan supper/dinner at chef at home. we chatted and i guess it was a series conversation!! wat series you have, help me burn!! everyone is so excited, wanting series from him. poor chris. victim of us 3 series hunters.

now that my exam is over, and next mon is a public hols i feel sooooo free. yup, sooo free. my dad will be coming back from hols with his frens in a couple of hours and my relatives are in town. tonite, makan again!
and more sleep, tv and makan!! hehe