Tuesday, July 31, 2007

still caught up

registration and matric fair was today. finally and officially an nus student. got lotsa goody bags and stuff. damn funny...cos when i was at the matric fair, suddenly 3 girls say you also from nursing??? and i was like so shocked but glad to be able to meet them. showed them to my room cos they werent sure they wanted to stay on campus. i had to go back to my room cos the bags and gifts are soo heavy till my hand wanna patah already.
then at 12pm, met up with andrew and went to yih, thats like near the registration fair to have lunch. then christine came along too. christine and i went to check for the phone plans of singtel while andrew went for registration. while waiting for him, we went back to yih lounge room and kinda lingered around the place, went to it co-op. then as he was finally matriculated, seeing he had a science bag, christine and i wanted to get one too, so we went back in. security kinda tight, only freshmans are allowed to go in. and poor guy had to wait for us. of cos, for the three of us, we were altogether exhausted cos been walking around, up and down the stairs and hill. by the time we came back to our rooms, i think it was around 4 plus. went straight to the shower as i was like soaking wet. today apparently was the first day it din rain. explains the sweat. then sorting our my goody bags, uj later came by to have a chat in my room. and at 6 plu, uj, andrew and i went over to yih again, for dinner while meeting the rest and the alumni ppl where at 7pm we had a talk on how to be successful in life thru nus. until now, am back, posting this, and exhausted. i paid for a drink without taking a drink....explains my tiredness rite??

alrite, gotta pack for tomorrows camp till fri. tomorrow morning gonna go down to ica immigration to get my student pass as i want to get the singtel phone plan. without it i cant apply for it. gotta go at 630am cos ppl say there will be a lng queue. then rush back to nus get the phone and then i gotta go to the camp site which is at aloha loyang alone. actually i am suppose to meet the other nursing students at 830 and then attend a concert around 11 then leave for the camp site at 2pm. looks like i gotta go alone. oh please god, please let everythign run smoothly....no queue, early application for student visa, successful in obtaining my tsudent pass and also my passport, get my phone plan and in time to join the rest to the camp site so i dun have to go alone. ya, i guess thats it.....i pray to get my student pass settled before 12pm!!

thats it for today. back on fri....

Monday, July 30, 2007

SG now part 2

28/7 sat
the nite tour, we brought around town, basically near the padang and that nite was the rehearsal for their sg national day celebration. got to see a few fireworks. then went to mustafas, which is like the only 24 hour shopping centre in sg. had supper, where my fried rice was a huge portion. and then when we came back, chatted a lil while before we head back to our rooms. and i called it off for the day at 1am sun.

29/7 sun
morning woke up and i posted the previous part. then off to lunch with two new frens of mine, shereen and chi kuan. then off to ikea. smaller compared to kl. prices are kinda similar if not more exp. but some stuff are cheaper too. well, i bought the file folder box, the basic cartont type, two for 10cents and supposedly a paper dustbin but am using it as a storage box which cost 20cents. i also bought a cupboard organiser for 4bucks as i really dun like the cupboard layout. and then by the time we got back to pgpr, it was 630pm as we had some obstacle before leaving ikea. oh ya, hot dog with soft drink was delicious in ikea. anyway, at 7pm, went to the central library for the cors talk and it lasted till 10 plus. waiting for the bus for about half an hour since it was a sunday, i guess i slept again at 1am after my shower.

30/7 mon
filled with stuff to settled today, i guess sometimes its better to do it alone than promising ppl. anyway, realising that i was sing wireless all along, and not lan cable, i knewtoday i had to go the co-op to buy a cable cos the connection is soo unstable which just annoys and irritates me. paid my fees and trying to figure out the unstable internet connection, today i had the company of ex-taylorian sam frens too, andrew and joan. well, joan, kinda have the same problem for the internet. trying to fix it, we both decided to bring it to the it centre. and it was concluded that it was our lan port in our rooms that was causing the problem. but i guess not now, as i bought a lan cable and my internet is perfectly fine. having lunch at yusof ishak house, i have to conclude now that my residence canteen really really is kinda bad. after lunch, when to co-op and bought the cable, head back to our room to put back our laptops and then out to clementi with christine coming along too. i wanted to go clementi so i can top up my ez link for the camp and buy some stuff while the rest went to the bank and also shopping. and at nite, dinner and chat with chi kuan, andrew, christine and joan. finally a nite in my room. din wanted to go suntec cos am afraid i will get too exhausted plus am not feeling really well. gonna call my day now.

tomorrow i have registration and matric fair to attend. at nite, another talk and aug 1 to 3 camp plus aug 4 race!! i hope i dun break down hehe

thanks for the company and glad to have known all of you, my new frens.....

Sunday, July 29, 2007

SG now

been a while since i have posted anything, or should i say, eversince i left kuching, i haven posted anything from singapore. well, thats because i was caught up with lotsa stuff. i know some of you are wondering wat am i up too. and no, am not lazy to blog or anything. i tot i am gonna have plenty of time to relax before uni officially starts on 13 aug, but i was wrong. there are just so many events and activities going on. and even now, am tired and exhausted. so tot i would just summarize wat events they were/are

25/7 wed
arrived sg, checked in to the room, went out to open bank account but was too late. met the kuching guy, doing the same course as me. dinner at 7pm with the malaysian student league. irene, who is an ex-nus student brought us to the chill out room. played cluedo, where IIII finally won for once, won twice actually. slept at 2am

26/7 thurs
woke up early at 7am. why? need to sit for QET exam. after the exam, irene brought chang mei, uj from sri lanka and i to clementi town. had lunch while waiting to open our dbs bank account, around 1pm. processing it takes a week, and after done with changs tuition loan, walked the whole of clementi town and before we head back to the campus, we did some grocery shopping. by the time we got back it was already 5 plus then after a short shower and rest, dinner at the canteen with the msl again before being brought to the watch them play captains ball at the bb court. missed the times we played captains ball in the hall at lodge. played till midnite.

27/7 fri
gathered at foyer of pgpr at 1pm the international student ofi began from 2pm till 6pm plus. and by the tme we got back to our room, it was nearly 7pm where the captains ball competition was suppose to start. we went to watch and after 12 grps battled,the 2 malaysian teams won first and second place, continuing last years reign. by the time we all settle down it was 1am, and that was not it for the nite. supper, brought by the seniors to fong seng. journey, wasnt really worth it, takes half an hour to reach compared to last years my place asia cafe less tahn 5 minutes or js too. slept at 3am.

28/8 sat
went to the faculty of eng/archi canteen to have lunch, food was so much better than the ones in pgpr and cheaper too. then chang mei went to meet her aunt while uj and i went around archi faculty. she is stuydying archi. then we walked around outside the faculty which brings us to the fong seng place. and then walked all the way back to campus. seems near but far. by the time we got back to our room, it was like 5pm. and then at 7pm, we assembled at the foyer again for the sg nite tour, organised by the alumnis. irene, danielle, alex and cynthia were some of the alumnis. went to ....

continue later, off to ikea first.

Monday, July 23, 2007

one long nite/day i hope...

i seriously hope that tonite will pass by sooo slowly although i still have tomorrow nite. but you see leaving at 11 on wed doesnt make me count tomorrow nite the last nite, as by the time i wake up on wed morning, off i go to the airport. so yea, i hope tonite and tomorrow will just pass by so slowly...

finished packing already!!! well, not entirely, still got some stuff to pack but that will do it tomorrow. i guess i finally know my coursemate who also hails from kuching @ lionels orchestra mate @ jocelyns cousin @ c. dianas ex student.....wern lunn!! dunno if you are gonna read this but just wanna say a big HI!!! now since i din know you found out bout my blog a long time ago.

i really hope tat i am gonna be prepared as i leave kuching/msia. and also face watever challenges that is instored for me. i pray that i wont be up to the point of quitting, detouring, or just regretting any decisions that i have made!

oh well, only time can tell.....

TIME...
will heal anything
will change everything

and this i dedicate it to you and you and you and ME!!! hehehe! hopefully you three knows who you are......ask me if you are unsure.

Friday, July 20, 2007

out again....will it be the last???

today, went out again, for lunch with chang and bernie....the three musketeers who has been going out together since march??? so i tot before chang and i leave, we should go out once again and have a meal together.

had mdm tangs, beef noodle and nasi lemak. then i ordered the guilingao with honey, just to feel our time before 2pm, going bings. and i guess the guilingao was the verrryyyy bitter type. i only reason i wanted to have it is to detoxify my body.

leaving mdm tangs at 2pm, we left for bings. chieh called us out for a drink there. but too bad, chang and i couldn stay for long cos got stuff to do after that. it was worth the dropping by cos at least we get to meet frens rite!!?? yi chieh and lionel!!! lionel is leaving tonite by the way

and before going back home, i dropped by my ex-add math tuition teachers house. and now, again, doing the same thing like yesterday....five days and counting

feeling......a lil excited

Thursday, July 19, 2007

><

one by one, everyone is leaving. first was kim hoon. then deanne yesterday. kevin today. lionel tomorrow. bing coming soon.

just came back from a day at stellas house, finishing the out of date form 5 pix and also sending kevin off.

now reading emails from the nursing grp which can like reach 50 messages after one nite. also just found out that lionel actually knows the person who is also going for nursing in NUS, the one c. diana leong mentioned to me.

feeling ------empty

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

a week left and counting...

just came back after a long day out. morning, out with my dad and dads fren for my termination of visa. also paid bills, settle some of my parents stuff.

lunch at open air market, though i am suppose to meet up with stella them all at toms. after my lunch with my dad and his fren, they dropped me off to join with the rest. after lunch at toms, we went iglool. sat at the kids corner.

i din wanted to go out actually, since i did mention to myself that this week was all for me, family, and home. but i guess i made the correct decision in meeting them up just now....cos i get to meet up with bing another time, then phey feng and kiong, haven met them eversince they came back and also gabriel

now that i am back at home, i just had my bath....was dreading for one, eversince the hot sun is dominating kuching at noon.

then reading my inbox.....floodded with messages from my nursing group. kinda scary reading all of them actually...i mean sgns, talking about their education and ccas?? i dun even know wat some of them are talking bout.

after that gonna be back on my photo album.....yup, the really long overdue pictures of form 5 which i haven pasted in my photo album. rushing to finish it so stella and i can have a nite chat while looking at the pix.

fyi, FINALLY i finished my sis cross stitch...thats basically the only reason i can start work on my photo album. although i haven done the outlining but i considered it done.

7 more days and counting....crap, time pass really fast!!

Sunday, July 15, 2007

wat i had = wat i hope/am

fun, relaxed = i wan another round of it
time, time = i cant wait, i can wait
torn, broken = hurting, still recovering

Saturday, July 14, 2007

A to Z - Loving You Just Seems So Hard

I hate you, but i love you
Without love, there will be no hate

Why is it so hard, for me to love you
no
Why is it so hard, for you to accept my love
Why is it so hard, for you to understand me

Why is it so hard, for you to understand
that i do truly love you

You may not realise it, but if only you knew
I wonder, will things be different then
how you are gonna treat me
how you are gonna think of me

Have you ever tot who I truly am
no longer a childish lil girl
but one who thinks

for herself and others
caring for your well-being

Have you ever tot wat i am doing
is all for you
I came back for you
to be with you
to share my love for you

as i know that time is running out

But my return

may be it was a mistake
as we always end up in a mess
harsh words are being said
painful acts being done

You blame me

while I blame myself
for being different from the elders
for not being who you wanted me to be

though i try every single day
with all my hard and all my soul
but still fail

I dunno who to turn to
apart from HIM

Every lil thing that you said
hurts me, breaks me
giving way for my tears
to roll down my cheeks

I know about that statement
That was mentioned
many years ago
when I was young

Four white and one black??
You may not know that I knew

I knew it alrite
And have always kept it

in my heart, my mind
And I knew from that very day
that I was different
that I can never be the same like you
that I will be always against you
And that I can never share my love with you
even as much as I want to

Theres so much I wanna say
Theres so much I wan you to know
But it just cant be done
Because of our differences

I wonder whether you will ever know
all this, wat I am thinking
And that I love you so very much
And that I din mean to hurt you

Because no matter wat happenes
I will always LOVE YOU
P n M

But it just SEEMS SO HARD

CLock is ticking

counting the days, only a week plus 3 more days left for me to enjoy home sweet home.

Monday and Tuesday
working, helped in taylors office cos the two education cunsellors were outstation again. Was nice to have stella and chang mei teman me at the quiet office. Kevin was temanin me thru the phone
Went out for dinner on Monday nite and Tuesday finally got to spend time at home. Joanne and called and asked me out for harry potter on wed but couldn’t

Wednesday
Girls were supposed to meet up at bings place at noon but couldn’t go. Had to go to office again and later dental appointment. HUGE HUGE fight with my parents…dad actually. Well, went I call it a fight, its definitely a biig problem alrite cos my dad is nobody you wanna mess with went he gets angry and I must say he was furious that morning. So there goes my mood for the rest of my Wednesday. I actually had a bad bad bad feeling on Tuesday when talking about Wednesday’s plans. And I guess I was rite, my heart was right, my intuition was right…dinner at nite again with frens.

Thursday
Had another visit to dentist again and went to ftms to settle my studies off. Well, termination of my student pass din go very well. Gotta go back on Monday again for the letter and immigration to terminate my visa. Supposed to meet up with phey feng but too bad had stuff to settle. Guess a day reserved for her and kk whos gonna come back this weekend.

Friday
day to watch harry potter. Chang mei picked me up at about 1pm and had lunch chicken rice behind hock lee. Chatted, chatted of course, I mean where theres food and place to sit, talking is the only thing we can do besides eating. Since the movie as at 4pm, we went over to crown tower first, thinking to pick her sis up. We both certainly are not the window shopping type of person, and we end up at causeway restaurant for a drink. As it was about time, picked stella up from parkson and off we went to star. Kinda predicted lotsa lodgians there as they just finished their exams. Indeed we were rite. Met tiffany chuo there. So watching the movie was me, chang, stella, kev and Bernie. Then lionel came to join us. But there were others that we knew, juniors from lodge, lazy to mention.

How was the movie….honestly, I din read the book, but I must say it was pretty bad. I dunno. It doesn’t really have any wow/x factor that keeps any part of the movie memorable. No wonder shih yang dinw anted to watch cos he says its gonna be a disappointment comparing to the book. i dunno, maybe because of the bunch of girls, you know who, sitting behind me kept on kicking the chair so restless and kept on commenting, harry so cute la, this and that….sooo annoying.
After the movie, about 6.30pm, lionel left first, had family dinner I think. Since it was too early to have dinner, Bernie suggested to go waterfront cos he wanted to get sth there. Refusing to tell us, its finally an ice blended drink that he wanted. Sitting on the bench, we thought of where to eat. Chef at home, banquet, travillion….in the end, went to bernies aunt food network, nk, along jalan keretapi. Before heading back to bern’s house for cluedo….we went over to banquet to have dessert. And four round of cluedo before we all went back. Stella left after banquet to meet up with her frens from west Malaysia.

Saturday/today
Rainforest world music festival is now on by the way. Bern and chang were supposed to go but no tix. I already had in mind that this weekend is gonna be a homey weekend. And guess with the rainforest not on for some of them, we decided to take it slow at our homes for this weekend. Well, just hope that everything goes smoothly at home, you know relationships with your family, the two girls should be agreeing on me with this.

Saturday, July 7, 2007

A to Z - Frens? Companion?

It is easy to find frens, but hard to find companion.

You may have many frens, but not a single companion.

Could life be worth living then?

Which one are YOU?

Fren?

Companion?

or NONE?


- inspired from Datin Diaries the series -

7/7/07

'Sevens' day, obviously there will be tonnes of copules tieing their knot and lotsa cryings in the hospitals...just wondering, why not wait for another year plus another month plus another day...wont that be even special??

its july!!!!, 7th somemore, my goodness, less than 20 days....oh boy, my feelings are rather up and down. excited to start uni, but sad to leave malaysia, my home for 14 year. cos knowing that next 7 years i will be wat chris said the kiasu land, makes it more painful as i dun even know when i will get to stay in malaysia like how i use to before.

ok, most of you probably wont understand wat am talking bout. forget it then....been out these few days.....yup, till i kinda miss my home!! laying on the couch watch tv and sleep. hehe. i know my mums complaining....go out everyday, weather is sooo hot, later get sick. touch wood, i say. and i guess i haven spend my time much at home...

monday, out town met val and stella, nite bing's party!

tuesday, cut my hair short

wednesday, went to school with the rest then noon with stella and val

thursday, busy with my dad, oh and nite!!! dinner at bella italia with stella, chang, kev, shih yang and bernie. then watch transformers where later at the end of the movie, we met simon and the bunch. supper at open air market, porridge. FINALLY i went there....well, bernie was saying, sherly are you staying in kuching or not??? cos i have never been there to eat. then stayed overnite at stellas place. where of course, we din sleep till 4 am.

friday, woke up at 10am, talk and talk again to stella, before leaving her house to taylors office, get keys. yup, keys so monday and tuesday i can take care of the office. then, tried to go online, but stupid tm net cacat unstable line....piss me off, so i go to sleep...and nite, sleep early too!!

and finally now, the line is stable, i get to check my email and nus stuff, which i suddenly dun feel like wanting to know about it... eg, cors?? i have no idea wats it, and am suppose to familiarise with it before i start uni but am just lazy to find out about it now

weird isn it....when you have sth with you, but yet you dun feel like attending to it....but when you dun have sth with you, you feel anxious and look forward for it.

and some people are ust annoying....i cant think of a word.....i mean, they can think and say it but never execute it themselves....its like they are not thinking bout themselves when saying it.