special = istimewa??

as i listen to THE song, i just wonder.....why am i so stupid last time? why am i so blind at that time? why am i like sooooo lurus bendul at that point of time? oh goodness, it just sucks to remember wat i have missed, the opportunity given, the chance right in front of me....thinking back, feeling of regret is the only thing i can feel. geram too. wat to do, no one to blame except for my own self. i deserve it. my own fault, my mistake. things are different just because of the past. nothing i can do, but be more observant in the future, treat the past as a lesson, well, tat is if there is another time again.